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Cheyenne De'claire Wan 16 this year, I stay the same age every 22 march (heh) :D Loves painted nails, photography, talking, music. Staring at food makes me feel fatter every day. :/ Waiting for my 18th birthday where i can go overseas as promisedd;D whooo! AND I NEED A JOB SOOOON :o & if one day i grow too fat, hopefully there will be someone whoo would be there to roll around earth with me. Msn ; Facebook . |
Booya! (:
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Troubled
Thursday, January 06, 2011 @ 9:35 am I really don't know what's wrong with me. Why I feel this way, Is it a sin to feeeeeel this way? Last night I had a super terrible dream. I can it can relate to life on different levels. Like everything is so misplaced. Like how I really saw my brother, How I saw various people, How I saw myself, And lastly, how I really feel.. I feel lost. I have no idea what's feeling where i feel like shit/invincible/unwanted/not needed/better off somewhere else/useless/not appreciated/ everyday. I really don't. What is it? God, why am I such a ball of nerves. I'm fine! I just do not know why I'm feeling this.
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@ 9:13 am What's becoming of this? |
Declared moved
Monday, December 14, 2009 @ 11:27 pm Heyyy, people I'm kinda using tumblr for now. Kinda, HEH HEH. SO yeahhh :D |
@God wants you to know.
Friday, December 04, 2009 @ 8:10 pm On this day, God wants you to know…… that a successful relationship requires I feel very very lazy to update my blogger now :/ noooooooo. Not good. I finished washing the plates, sweep the floor and clean the house :) Me mama's coming back tmr. & there's interview tmr. UGHHHH-.- NEHMIND. BREATHEEE........ |
Now I know why I can't stop thinking about the past
Thursday, December 03, 2009 @ 11:31 pm It keeps coming back. Lately something has been bugging. I don't know what.. But it makes me want to tear. Is like I never knew anyone properly clearly at all. I don't even know myself at all. I feels like I can't turn to anyone, what's the point letting them know more about me when I know less about them. Go to hell. Omg God where am I? If only humans were like penguins... I wish my penguin wouldn't hurt me so bad. Then again.... Everybody will hurt you, is just a matter of who is worth it. |
Created Neopets :D
Tuesday, December 01, 2009 @ 7:02 pm NEOPETS :D Wheeeeeee!!~
Kills my boredom time, created too little lovely well.. pets ^^ They're names areee super cool please! Doux and datadaDoi (gift form God) ahhahhah.. & so cute. Haha, shit, I better not be addicted to it. I draining my aunts electrical supply :( Opps. Ohwell, tomorrow will be the last stinking day I'd see whether I'd be taking up the IR or whatever job. God never came through.. :( *scratch head* So yeah. I feel mentally wrong serioudly. I can't think straight. And for the record, I love my blogger more than my tumblr. Get well soon rolly polly ^^ |
@Rivelazione
@ 3:37 pm If going crazy could burn fats,
I think I'd be like a darn stick by now. |
@God wants you to know
@ 2:30 pm On this day God wants you to know... I'm going to create a tumblr for fun. Since I'm so blooodyyyy bored. Oh my, it aint going well :o How'd you do it?? ._. Maybe i should play neopets.. I'm soooo very tempted... :/ |
Will you marry me?
Sunday, November 29, 2009 @ 10:27 pm Need Edward Cullen take sooooooooo long to say those words. Sheesh, GUYS. Hahaha. The dudes soooo hot! But I was sitting next to someone who was sooooo much hotter, omggg cheesy. Anyway whole ride to class had a feeling of puking:( quite bad. So left after the first class to pass marcus back his notes too. Omgg, I finally heard a whole sentence which only consist of : wang lee home contacts eh (refering to the free contact lens vouch). Yeah, but just as he said wang lee hom his eyes glistened more. Its quite amazing, never seen anything like it. Haha. Then went to catch new moon. Its pretty slow... Thank you baby though:) He had suffered the whole 2hour and 10minutes show asking alot of questions lost and confused. Silly, then headed for dinner at aunts house and he went to play lan :( Oh well, interview tmr:( I really really hope, I get it. If not... God has better plans:) & IF I WERE RICH, I'D TAKE BABY TO TRY ALL THESEEEEEE ^^ Boo, will be all alone tmr morning :/ sighh. I'd wish for a jacob now. Hah-hah -_- soooooo hot. ;)
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@God wants you to know
Saturday, November 28, 2009 @ 10:19 pm On this day of your life, Cheyenne, we believe God wants you to know ... that there is no such thing as conditional love. Love is either unconditional or it's no love. You might like someone conditional on their personality or behavior or circumstances. But love accepts no boundaries. So never say 'I love you because', for love has no cause, love comes from God. hmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm:/ Know it's okay if you're irritated with me. Cause' I feel quite irritated at myself too. |
I feeeel like shit. Probably look like one too.
@ 9:23 pm Yeah, I do. Finished the fourth novel of pretty little liars already. :) Played guitar heroes again at Marks house. Had a full band today :D
SERIOUSLY, NO PUN INTENDED-.-
It doesn't even take a lifetime of happiness to make up for that one terrible mistake made (which you thought was okay). It is. Not. That. Easy. It is scientifically proven that people can remember bad memories better than good ones. Because, they have bigger impact on the person. Funny how you know dramas, all those people loose their memories when their lifes are perfectly fine. And how bad some people want so badly to lose it but they don't. But there's a reason for that I guess, well.. I came up with 2 possibilities. 1. to make you stronger. 2. to make you more careful. 3. just to make you more depressed. Icantstopthinking,whycantistopthinking.IbetilooklikeshitiprobablyDOlooklikeshit,ughhhhhhhhhhhh. Maybe its just a season, i really do hope so. -.- I think I need another break, really long break.. And I mean a break to think things through.. Or maybe.. I don't know. What the heck do I know? What if one day we went back to the past. And instead of being you, you were being me, and me you. I'll make sure I'll do it my way. And if it happens again, i just got to let you go. |
;D
Wednesday, November 25, 2009 @ 7:56 pm I'm doing my resume now! :)
hehehe! Guess I won't be meeting baby today again. Oh well, know what? Screw work. >:( Kidding! :> |
A Cheyenne Valentine's Day
@ 1:26 am Hmm, its late. Just finished watching my brother play assasins creed 2, its awesome but its so slow. -.- ugh, I'd rather play it myself. The job person asked omar to call tmr. I hope it'll be something good. I'll have faith. Yay, can't wait:) Then had parents anniversary dinner as a family:) Rather rare, it's like one in a million! Anyway, we're celebrating as a family because my mom's going to india for a holiday alone. I'm rather worried-.- May a big strong muscular angel follow her wherever she goes. Daddy's working late today too:( ugh. Dinner was fun recalling back the past. My Sissy just remembered me crying when I was bullied and my older brother going : WO YAO BAO CHOU! Hahaha so cute. I don't remember tho.. Hmm. I only remembered how he punched me and dragged me because I was waving to his stalkers. ASS. Whalao, now you know why I hit people so much. Its heritage. LOL. Anyway, mentalist was awesome today! Wait, when is it never? And after ALL THAT, I lie on my bed. All I could remember was valentines day. HMM, I just reminded myself that.. Why does that date always sound so bitter. Not that I have no dates or I crave to have one (tempting tho when you had none, you felt pathetic, LOL, to a certain extend^^) I don't know... Its so weird, how that day always passes by badly each year. So awkward, is like.. things I would assume i'd get. I do get. Just.... From the wrong person at the wrong time. Is like they could give me sooner, i'd be in seventh heaven by then. BUT ohwell, I think its just me. :D Sucks tho. Next time marriage HOW. DIE LA, sua la. Hahaha kidding:) Still, trying to recall the sweetest day of history can be so bitter. |
Red camp 6 @ngeeann
Saturday, November 21, 2009 @ 11:09 am NINJAS OII! Went for red camppp. whoooo. Not bad uh, alot of free stuff and freakin awesome food and sls too. :D
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Troubled
Thursday, January 06, 2011 @ 9:35 am I really don't know what's wrong with me. Why I feel this way, Is it a sin to feeeeeel this way? Last night I had a super terrible dream. I can it can relate to life on different levels. Like everything is so misplaced. Like how I really saw my brother, How I saw various people, How I saw myself, And lastly, how I really feel.. I feel lost. I have no idea what's feeling where i feel like shit/invincible/unwanted/not needed/better off somewhere else/useless/not appreciated/ everyday. I really don't. What is it? God, why am I such a ball of nerves. I'm fine! I just do not know why I'm feeling this.
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@ 9:13 am What's becoming of this? |
Declared moved
Monday, December 14, 2009 @ 11:27 pm Heyyy, people I'm kinda using tumblr for now. Kinda, HEH HEH. SO yeahhh :D |
@God wants you to know.
Friday, December 04, 2009 @ 8:10 pm On this day, God wants you to know…… that a successful relationship requires I feel very very lazy to update my blogger now :/ noooooooo. Not good. I finished washing the plates, sweep the floor and clean the house :) Me mama's coming back tmr. & there's interview tmr. UGHHHH-.- NEHMIND. BREATHEEE........ |
Now I know why I can't stop thinking about the past
Thursday, December 03, 2009 @ 11:31 pm It keeps coming back. Lately something has been bugging. I don't know what.. But it makes me want to tear. Is like I never knew anyone properly clearly at all. I don't even know myself at all. I feels like I can't turn to anyone, what's the point letting them know more about me when I know less about them. Go to hell. Omg God where am I? If only humans were like penguins... I wish my penguin wouldn't hurt me so bad. Then again.... Everybody will hurt you, is just a matter of who is worth it. |
Created Neopets :D
Tuesday, December 01, 2009 @ 7:02 pm NEOPETS :D Wheeeeeee!!~
Kills my boredom time, created too little lovely well.. pets ^^ They're names areee super cool please! Doux and datadaDoi (gift form God) ahhahhah.. & so cute. Haha, shit, I better not be addicted to it. I draining my aunts electrical supply :( Opps. Ohwell, tomorrow will be the last stinking day I'd see whether I'd be taking up the IR or whatever job. God never came through.. :( *scratch head* So yeah. I feel mentally wrong serioudly. I can't think straight. And for the record, I love my blogger more than my tumblr. Get well soon rolly polly ^^ |
@Rivelazione
@ 3:37 pm If going crazy could burn fats,
I think I'd be like a darn stick by now. |
@God wants you to know
@ 2:30 pm On this day God wants you to know... I'm going to create a tumblr for fun. Since I'm so blooodyyyy bored. Oh my, it aint going well :o How'd you do it?? ._. Maybe i should play neopets.. I'm soooo very tempted... :/ |
Will you marry me?
Sunday, November 29, 2009 @ 10:27 pm Need Edward Cullen take sooooooooo long to say those words. Sheesh, GUYS. Hahaha. The dudes soooo hot! But I was sitting next to someone who was sooooo much hotter, omggg cheesy. Anyway whole ride to class had a feeling of puking:( quite bad. So left after the first class to pass marcus back his notes too. Omgg, I finally heard a whole sentence which only consist of : wang lee home contacts eh (refering to the free contact lens vouch). Yeah, but just as he said wang lee hom his eyes glistened more. Its quite amazing, never seen anything like it. Haha. Then went to catch new moon. Its pretty slow... Thank you baby though:) He had suffered the whole 2hour and 10minutes show asking alot of questions lost and confused. Silly, then headed for dinner at aunts house and he went to play lan :( Oh well, interview tmr:( I really really hope, I get it. If not... God has better plans:) & IF I WERE RICH, I'D TAKE BABY TO TRY ALL THESEEEEEE ^^ Boo, will be all alone tmr morning :/ sighh. I'd wish for a jacob now. Hah-hah -_- soooooo hot. ;)
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@God wants you to know
Saturday, November 28, 2009 @ 10:19 pm On this day of your life, Cheyenne, we believe God wants you to know ... that there is no such thing as conditional love. Love is either unconditional or it's no love. You might like someone conditional on their personality or behavior or circumstances. But love accepts no boundaries. So never say 'I love you because', for love has no cause, love comes from God. hmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm:/ Know it's okay if you're irritated with me. Cause' I feel quite irritated at myself too. |
I feeeel like shit. Probably look like one too.
@ 9:23 pm Yeah, I do. Finished the fourth novel of pretty little liars already. :) Played guitar heroes again at Marks house. Had a full band today :D
SERIOUSLY, NO PUN INTENDED-.-
It doesn't even take a lifetime of happiness to make up for that one terrible mistake made (which you thought was okay). It is. Not. That. Easy. It is scientifically proven that people can remember bad memories better than good ones. Because, they have bigger impact on the person. Funny how you know dramas, all those people loose their memories when their lifes are perfectly fine. And how bad some people want so badly to lose it but they don't. But there's a reason for that I guess, well.. I came up with 2 possibilities. 1. to make you stronger. 2. to make you more careful. 3. just to make you more depressed. Icantstopthinking,whycantistopthinking.IbetilooklikeshitiprobablyDOlooklikeshit,ughhhhhhhhhhhh. Maybe its just a season, i really do hope so. -.- I think I need another break, really long break.. And I mean a break to think things through.. Or maybe.. I don't know. What the heck do I know? What if one day we went back to the past. And instead of being you, you were being me, and me you. I'll make sure I'll do it my way. And if it happens again, i just got to let you go. |
;D
Wednesday, November 25, 2009 @ 7:56 pm I'm doing my resume now! :)
hehehe! Guess I won't be meeting baby today again. Oh well, know what? Screw work. >:( Kidding! :> |
A Cheyenne Valentine's Day
@ 1:26 am Hmm, its late. Just finished watching my brother play assasins creed 2, its awesome but its so slow. -.- ugh, I'd rather play it myself. The job person asked omar to call tmr. I hope it'll be something good. I'll have faith. Yay, can't wait:) Then had parents anniversary dinner as a family:) Rather rare, it's like one in a million! Anyway, we're celebrating as a family because my mom's going to india for a holiday alone. I'm rather worried-.- May a big strong muscular angel follow her wherever she goes. Daddy's working late today too:( ugh. Dinner was fun recalling back the past. My Sissy just remembered me crying when I was bullied and my older brother going : WO YAO BAO CHOU! Hahaha so cute. I don't remember tho.. Hmm. I only remembered how he punched me and dragged me because I was waving to his stalkers. ASS. Whalao, now you know why I hit people so much. Its heritage. LOL. Anyway, mentalist was awesome today! Wait, when is it never? And after ALL THAT, I lie on my bed. All I could remember was valentines day. HMM, I just reminded myself that.. Why does that date always sound so bitter. Not that I have no dates or I crave to have one (tempting tho when you had none, you felt pathetic, LOL, to a certain extend^^) I don't know... Its so weird, how that day always passes by badly each year. So awkward, is like.. things I would assume i'd get. I do get. Just.... From the wrong person at the wrong time. Is like they could give me sooner, i'd be in seventh heaven by then. BUT ohwell, I think its just me. :D Sucks tho. Next time marriage HOW. DIE LA, sua la. Hahaha kidding:) Still, trying to recall the sweetest day of history can be so bitter. |
Red camp 6 @ngeeann
Saturday, November 21, 2009 @ 11:09 am NINJAS OII! Went for red camppp. whoooo. Not bad uh, alot of free stuff and freakin awesome food and sls too. :D
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