Cheyenne De'claire Wan
16 this year, I stay the same age every 22 march (heh) :D
Loves painted nails, photography, talking, music.
Staring at food makes me feel fatter every day. :/
Waiting for my 18th birthday where i can go overseas as promisedd;D whooo!
AND I NEED A JOB SOOOON :o
& if one day i grow too fat, hopefully there will be someone whoo would be there to roll around earth with me.
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Thursday, January 06, 2011 @ 9:35 AM
I really don't know what's wrong with me.
Why I feel this way,
Is it a sin to feeeeeel this way?
Last night I had a super terrible dream.
I can it can relate to life on different levels.
Like everything is so misplaced.
Like how I really saw my brother,
How I saw various people,
How I saw myself,
And lastly, how I really feel..
I feel lost.
I have no idea what's feeling where i feel like shit/invincible/unwanted/not needed/better off somewhere else/useless/not appreciated/ everyday.
I really don't. What is it?
God, why am I such a ball of nerves. I'm fine!
I just do not know why I'm feeling this.
@ 9:13 AM
What's becoming of this?
Monday, December 14, 2009 @ 11:27 PM
Heyyy, people I'm kinda using tumblr for now. Kinda, HEH HEH. SO yeahhh :D
@God wants you to know.
Friday, December 04, 2009 @ 8:10 PM
On this day, God wants you to know…… that a successful relationship requires
I feel very very lazy to update my blogger now :/ noooooooo. Not good.
I finished washing the plates, sweep the floor and clean the house :) Me mama's coming back tmr. & there's interview tmr. UGHHHH-.- NEHMIND. BREATHEEE........
Now I know why I can't stop thinking about the past
Thursday, December 03, 2009 @ 11:31 PM
It keeps coming back.
Lately something has been bugging. I don't know what.. But it makes me want to tear. Is like I never knew anyone properly clearly at all. I don't even know myself at all. I feels like I can't turn to anyone, what's the point letting them know more about me when I know less about them. Go to hell.
Omg God where am I?
If only humans were like penguins...
I wish my penguin wouldn't hurt me so bad.
Then again.... Everybody will hurt you, is just a matter of who is worth it.
My own mooon. ooo la la~
Wednesday, December 02, 2009 @ 11:58 PM
Today was hesitating whether to go for lunch. Firt part was quite awkward lah, but nehhhhmind :) OMG, bryon had this really awesome huge patric starrr! whahahahaha. Yes, anyway, lunch was... alot. And vry unfinished due to... HMM, people having anti-carbs diet o.O and i'm sick. ._. Glenda's cupcake was awesome thooooo!!! Baby should have tried... :(
Nehmind, headed home rather tried. Then met baby afterwards xD IT'S A FREE EMO DAY TODAY :) I hope everyday is like that, it'll be sooo awesome. Then went to walk walk around the track, a way of slacking, and crapping. Hahaha, omg the last part was the stooopidest!
"I'm the car, you're the wheel. I'm the armpit, you're the armpit hair" WHAT'S THAT MAN!!!! AHAHAHA. Seriously high now, must be the white choc cupcake taking effect xD Mmm! I want somemore :( hahahaha.
Now adding nadine as my neopet friend. I'm surprised she still rmbs ALOT of stuff uh. She's on my VIP list! HEHEHEHEH. Ahem. Yeah, I guess I'm really retarded now :) Gotta get back to baby. :) Not gonna see him for... I don't know how long :'(
Hey my gorgeoous mooon,
Created Neopets :D
Tuesday, December 01, 2009 @ 7:02 PM
NEOPETS :D Wheeeeeee!!~
Kills my boredom time, created too little lovely well.. pets ^^
They're names areee super cool please! Doux and datadaDoi (gift form God) ahhahhah..
& so cute. Haha, shit, I better not be addicted to it.
I draining my aunts electrical supply :( Opps.
Ohwell, tomorrow will be the last stinking day I'd see whether I'd be taking up the IR or whatever job. God never came through.. :( *scratch head* So yeah.
I feel mentally wrong serioudly. I can't think straight.
And for the record, I love my blogger more than my tumblr.
Get well soon rolly polly ^^
@ 3:37 PM
If going crazy could burn fats,
I think I'd be like a darn stick by now.
@God wants you to know
@ 2:30 PM
On this day God wants you to know...
I'm going to create a tumblr for fun. Since I'm so blooodyyyy bored.
Oh my, it aint going well :o How'd you do it?? ._.
Maybe i should play neopets.. I'm soooo very tempted... :/
I've no life.
@ 12:50 PM
What bordeom does.
1. It kills you brain cells.
2. Make you think really crazy and stupid stuff.
3. Since you've nothing to think about present or future, you think about the past.
4. It makes you want to do something really stupid. Really stupid.
Stupid dream is making go crazy. Or maybe is just the aimless life I lead, make me feel like I'm back in that hideous moment living its killer routine and memories. I'd be out of it before I know it, Amen. :)
Finished my 5th book of pretty little liars - wicked already. Zzz. one good book that can entertain me and its going down so fast. If I could, I'd live in a library, I mean bookstore. :) Awesomeness.
The once used to be long day switches with the really boring ones.
Better suffering alone than making others suffer with you. :)
I'M GOING TO BE BETTERRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR!! :)
Will you marry me?
Sunday, November 29, 2009 @ 10:27 PM
Need Edward Cullen take sooooooooo long to say those words. Sheesh, GUYS. Hahaha. The dudes soooo hot! But I was sitting next to someone who was sooooo much hotter, omggg cheesy.
Anyway whole ride to class had a feeling of puking:( quite bad. So left after the first class to pass marcus back his notes too. Omgg, I finally heard a whole sentence which only consist of : wang lee home contacts eh (refering to the free contact lens vouch). Yeah, but just as he said wang lee hom his eyes glistened more. Its quite amazing, never seen anything like it. Haha.
Then went to catch new moon. Its pretty slow... Thank you baby though:) He had suffered the whole 2hour and 10minutes show asking alot of questions lost and confused. Silly, then headed for dinner at aunts house and he went to play lan :( Oh well, interview tmr:(
I really really hope, I get it. If not... God has better plans:)
& IF I WERE RICH, I'D TAKE BABY TO TRY ALL THESEEEEEE ^^
Boo, will be all alone tmr morning :/ sighh. I'd wish for a jacob now. Hah-hah -_-
soooooo hot. ;)
@God wants you to know
Saturday, November 28, 2009 @ 10:19 PM
On this day of your life, Cheyenne, we believe God wants you to know ... that
there is no such thing as conditional love.
Love is either unconditional or
it's no love. You might like someone conditional on their personality or
behavior or circumstances. But love accepts no boundaries. So never say 'I love
you because', for love has no cause, love comes from God.
Know it's okay if you're irritated with me.
Cause' I feel quite irritated at myself too.
I feeeel like shit. Probably look like one too.
@ 9:23 PM
Yeah, I do.
Finished the fourth novel of pretty little liars already. :)
Played guitar heroes again at Marks house. Had a full band today :D
SERIOUSLY, NO PUN INTENDED-.-
It doesn't even take a lifetime of happiness to make up for that one terrible mistake made (which you thought was okay).
It is. Not. That. Easy.
It is scientifically proven that people can remember bad memories better than good ones.
Because, they have bigger impact on the person.
Funny how you know dramas, all those people loose their memories when their lifes are perfectly fine. And how bad some people want so badly to lose it but they don't. But there's a reason for that I guess, well.. I came up with 2 possibilities.
1. to make you stronger.
2. to make you more careful.
3. just to make you more depressed.
Maybe its just a season, i really do hope so. -.-
I think I need another break, really long break..
And I mean a break to think things through.. Or maybe..
I don't know. What the heck do I know?
What if one day we went back to the past.
And instead of being you, you were being me, and me you.
I'll make sure I'll do it my way.
And if it happens again, i just got to let you go.
It is normal to be fickled.
Friday, November 27, 2009 @ 9:53 PM
How come I dont rmb these @_@ I was probably too high then :/
But anyways, one of the red camp 6 photos :)
I had the entire day with baby today.
Hahahahahahahahahahaha, he's getting more irritated i can sooo tell.
Played lan for awhile, ate tauhuey and checked out his laptop.
After which we had "fun off" net today.
MARK SUCK AT TABOO MAN, NEVER PLAY WITH HIM.
Ahem, ate dinner at long john and off to guitar heroes 5 at markos :)
Aweeeesomeeee, just lesser songs now. Hurry buy band hero markkk!
After about 2 hours of playing. My bro and mark got married at the void deck -.-
Dinner @3 monkeys.
Thursday, November 26, 2009 @ 9:50 PM
Oh hey check out, I did my nails exactly the same way!
Hahaha, never doing it again.
Had a little aunt day today :) Then had dinner with rolly polly's colleague. They're fine uh, really nice. Me likely like the boss. Hahahahaha. Super cute uh.
baby folded this for me. Should have seen it, NONO you should have seen the look on Nelson's face when he went down for a bite. HAHAHA FREAKIN HILARIOUS.
Goodbye mummy, helloooo INDIA!
@ 2:14 PM
Sorry for the picture, but I think its kinda cool. Not that they're.. NVM.
Sent me mother off to da airport today with my freakishly tall sissy.
I forgot to take a picture with her. HAHAHA But we had a fun time in the train laughing at our little brother and rather racist jokes.. :x hehehehe.
Lil bro: How are you doing.
Mom replies something like i'm fine sweetheart listen to yadayadayadayada and you know stuff mothers usually say.
Lil bro: Can I sms you when your in india.
Mother: No, you can't. It's very very very expensive.
Lil bro: Then can you give me the adress to india (or something like that)
: ( replies again to correct his english) I mean address.
HAHAHAHAHA. WTHHHHHHH, so cutee, that fat thing.
Anyway, did a little shopping there. Omg, Victoria's secret lip gloss-.- AND this really nice bracelet which I thought was a necklace but it's a bracelet. But it'll be a very nice chocker if it was JUST A BIT LONGER :( NOOOOOO.
Screw the maker. >:(
Headed to city hall after that to buy my mag after what seems like forever, 2 years of not reading dolly. God knows, kinda like it. Better than surfing the net for pictures all day and updated notifications. I'll dieeeeee. Then window shopped with sissy a bit. hahahahahaha, so fun :D Tried clothes on. Sissy looked nice in korea mother looking dress. O_O Anyway, afterwhich i headed home...
AND I'M SO SORRY DEVYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY :(
PLEASE FORGIVE ME. I FEEEL SO DARN BAD, REALLLLY :(
So now my aunty's coming home. Apparently she was in town too. -.- (And I asked myself this question... I came here because........ -.- *slaps head) Never mind that. I'm finally getting my pretty little liars novel 4th book! JOLYN YOU READING THIS. HAHAHA. I can't wait. Sleepless nights again. xD
Wednesday, November 25, 2009 @ 7:56 PM
I'm doing my resume now! :)
Guess I won't be meeting baby today again.
Oh well, know what? Screw work.
A Cheyenne Valentine's Day
@ 1:26 AM
Hmm, its late. Just finished watching my brother play assasins creed 2, its awesome but its so slow. -.- ugh, I'd rather play it myself.
The job person asked omar to call tmr. I hope it'll be something good. I'll have faith. Yay, can't wait:)
Then had parents anniversary dinner as a family:) Rather rare, it's like one in a million! Anyway, we're celebrating as a family because my mom's going to india for a holiday alone. I'm rather worried-.- May a big strong muscular angel follow her wherever she goes. Daddy's working late today too:( ugh. Dinner was fun recalling back the past.
My Sissy just remembered me crying when I was bullied and my older brother going : WO YAO BAO CHOU!
Hahaha so cute. I don't remember tho.. Hmm. I only remembered how he punched me and dragged me because I was waving to his stalkers. ASS. Whalao, now you know why I hit people so much. Its heritage. LOL.
Anyway, mentalist was awesome today! Wait, when is it never?
And after ALL THAT, I lie on my bed. All I could remember was valentines day. HMM, I just reminded myself that.. Why does that date always sound so bitter. Not that I have no dates or I crave to have one (tempting tho when you had none, you felt pathetic, LOL, to a certain extend^^)
I don't know... Its so weird, how that day always passes by badly each year. So awkward, is like.. things I would assume i'd get. I do get. Just.... From the wrong person at the wrong time. Is like they could give me sooner, i'd be in seventh heaven by then. BUT ohwell, I think its just me. :D
Sucks tho. Next time marriage HOW. DIE LA, sua la. Hahaha kidding:)
Still, trying to recall the sweetest day of history can be so bitter.
Red camp 6 @ngeeann
Saturday, November 21, 2009 @ 11:09 AM
Went for red camppp. whoooo.
Not bad uh, alot of free stuff and freakin awesome food and sls too. :D