Yes. I woke up. Still lazing, truth is i was still deciding on whether i should go for netball. I really didn't want but i had to if not Sarah would kill me. So.... well lets see what happens. Typical me. Sarah called. I had to go. I didn't grumble though. That's a good thing. Before my sis, parents and i went outta the house i asked if today we're going to the circus thingy. Well turn out to be.. they sold one ticket to someone so one didn't need to go. And i really wanted to go to the edge. No idea why.. But i wanted to. I even prayed last night that a miracle would happen. Well.. a miracle DID happen. In a very long time, my prayers actually answered or i just didn't pray that often or that i just don't realise. Headed to school, was like an hour late. Oh well.. reached school. I don't know why, but i felt happy. Really happy. Like everything's back to normal. No more worries. Just, netball. Lol. Miss Toh didn't scold me. Thank God. Tapped my leg at home cause i knew that I had too. Either there or home. Talked about ankle guard for awhile. Then did warm ups. Lol.

Okay. i expected that diao-ing look all of them gave when they were pissed when someone hadn't come for a long time. Lol. I REALLY did. I guess it was much better? Lol.. kind of welcoming. A little.. Then did court work. Sigh* Could see how SMALL the group is. Sigh* No defender for next week. Damn. I feel damn bad. But... church and netball competition mean just as important. And i already pre-booked it anyway. Damn. I'm really sorry... Urghhh... Split myself in two. The heat was really strong. Prayed for clouds to loom over the court. LOL! Prayed for rain too.

After netball made my way home by bus. Read the Sin and Salvation fourth book. SOOOO EXCITING xD hehheh. Reached home. Naggin started i HATE THAT! I hate how they always did it! So what if i had called him that? HE IS... -.-

Headed for my aunts house after that. Played the com. Fetched my brother from his camp. Damn those heels hurt. Heels-.- Then played somemore and went to clementi. Bus headed for the edge. Church was hilarious. Fun. Clear your mind from impure thoughts. I didn't stand. There was nothing in my mind. Different from last time. I don't know why. Then headed back home. Parents fetched me from aunts house. Damn i'm telling you their nagging is sooo terrible.

WHATEVER KAY... WTF.. I DON GIVE A SHIT. DAMN. I can't sms. I can't do that. I can't wear this. I can't talk that way. I can't do anything! DAMMIT. Like how i imagine me as lucy in the book how she tried to save people, but they wont listen and she'll fail. Like how i feel like begging my parents to let me be give me a life. DAMN lah.......!!

LIFE. Another guy. Another call. Another night. Irritating. Its starting all over. I hate it.

Okay like what i've type not too long. There wasn't anything in my mind. Nothing. But... the moment i got on my bed. Yeah thoughts came rushing through. Not really haha. Just one thought. I couldn't stop thinking. But I can control it if i wanted to. And i knew just how to. I can and i will. But damn..... (this paragraph has nothing to do with the one above it)

why must you be so nice?

Yeah got it controlled. Extra sealed it in my mind. cover it with a box. Then a wooden box followed by different types of metal. And a lock. Which only can be open if it happens again, or emotions go loose. Second one never gonna happen. And put my thoughts somewhere else... far far away from the extra sealed thought. And ... SLEPT :D