This is not going to be emo-.- Not. Just.. Expressing..

Had a fruitful afternoon with charis! :D Talked alot:) Haha. And I got the whole point. I'll pray about it! Oh, pre-service prayer was awesome:p Net leader yo! I'm greatly encouraged. ahah..

Edge was AWESOME. Woots! And thanks to guitar heroes which i played late into the night, last night.. I wanna learn bass! (Not that I never actually wanted too but never really thought of playing it for church know?) So yeah.. Amen:) Haha.

Praise and worship was powerr.. Loved it. Haha. Alot happened in the week. People i thought i'd never talk to, ended up talking. A few la.

Today's message was talking about the end times. Oh boy, i can't wait.. :D Jesus to come down and tralala-lala. That'll be the best day of my life. Alot of messages on the end times lately. Pretty cool. It stirs up the okay-it-doesn't-matter-how-stupid-i-look-now-i-just-want-souls-saved feeling. Lol.
Yeah, then I had a vision. Wow, who knew.. Haha.
'God works through your weakeness and not your strength'

Hmm, then finally finally talked to fiona la. Clement is sooo immature sometimes! Oh well! Booo clement, booo.

Headed to tiong AGAIN. Eat talk eat talk. Met joshua's friend. Talk talk. Debate about ahlians - they disgust me greatly but there's....

Yea then apparently joshy wanted to play pool which was Okay. Until he mentioned the place-.- Like you can kick me, cut my brain out, gorge my eye out, take my possessions, tear me apart literally, i still won't go-.- Although I was veryy tempted to. I wanted to see what it was like?

Unforgiveness seeped through then. I shouldn't have read the sms a few days back which i was deleting the previous day. Zzz. Stirs up the feeling -.-

But no matter how much certain stuff mention irks my nerves with shocks I never wanted to feel, to disturb the traumatised memo, somehow there is something different about the whole feeling. I can't put a finger upon.
No doubt it'll be the worst I've ever felt, but God went through it with me. He was beside me watched, but i was blind and broke.

So now I see. Why can't I forgive. I wouldn't say I've forgotten, its more like i'd rather not remember, forcing myself to forget. But those scars still shine once revealed.
Zzz.
But but my father read me a verse something like: because I'm forgiven, i should forgive.
Ohwell. I'm cooool :)

Carnival tmr at suntec! Omg Omg Omg! Wheeee! How I wish brother you were there, so you wouldn't suffering at home alone :)

Cause I need you Jesus to come to my rescue.
Where else can I go?