Okay, today.. teacher's day was SCREWED to the MAX. Shouldn't explain much-.-
Got pissed here and there. No idea why.. PMS day. Shall celebrate it next week with Jo and Dine. Hah, rather retarded.
Today she keep on staring lo. I seriously don't know what is her problem-.- Nvm....

Watched movie with Jo and Baby. The proposal :D Hahahha, damn funny.
Then headed home. :(

Currently there's this supposedly 14 year old girl talking to me. SHE IS EFFIN WEIRD. She is asking me if I have a stead. Why would YOU LIKE TO KNOW? I'm guessin it is a perverted old man behind the screens. EEEEEEEEEEEEEEEKKKK. -.-

Boy, what a day.
13 months :O Haha, love you :)

Alright! Got woken up in the early morning due to rehearsal at clarke quay. Reluctant at first due to lack of sleep :( But went regardless with carisser. Not bad, I learned quite a few. I just can't wait to play for like service eh. LOL. Well not really, like.. ahh never mind, as long as God understands :)

So we headed to borders after that for like hours to read mag and this awesomeeee book. Prophecy of sisters. It is about this two twin sisters that are in a prophecy that has led many sisters against each other because one is good and the other is bad. It is freakin cool. But it has witchcraft inside. Gives me the creeps. But weird enough.. the only books i picked in borders were allllllllll about witchcraft. -.- NOOOOOOOOOOOOO.

Anyway, headed to edge. :D Didn't meet baby in the end so yeah. Headed home straight today ^^ Pimple outbreak -.- Curses... Then played the secret piece. I think.. My hand.. can go die already.. It is soooo painful T.T HAHA. But it's fine :P

I feel rather sad at whyyyyyyy in the world do you have to care so much. Cause..
A. That would never happen. And you know it! Me running off is just not me. And..
B. Besides, I would never make you go something so painful, not for a day. Cause a month and a half is not as bad as hell but close-.- so shuddup and get over it silly!

Oh well, I would say... Screw science practical really -.- screw to the outer most core! Ugh...
nevermind.

Ended stinking early today :) just how I like it! Besides, baby didn't need to wait for hours either. Soon we took a bus down to boon lay to study and catch a early movie to release stress :D Gi.joe is really really good eh :x shucks, and we all thought it was lame. Goodness. So many movies out now! But only after prelims.. Cheh-meh~

After which headed home to rest for awhile. And well.. Prayed today, like finally B-) Haha. Gahh.

Social studies! Hereee I comeee! Stupid venice-.- seriously. What do we benefit from learning history eh? Geez.

When all is lost, look to God. The creator and finisher of our faith.

God spoke today. He really did. (Well at least to me)
While I was lying down, looking at the sky, I said a little prayer: show me a star in this empty sky to show me that You are here and all will be well.

I waited, constantly looking at the sky enjoying the breeze and loud piercing silent that kept our hearts distant. I don't even know how it started. Many times I tried to turn it around but to no avail.. Maybe i'm trying to hard. Maybe.. I shouldn't try at all and let nature take its course. Or maybe it is just me?..

Then all of a sudden in the midst of thinking.. Two stars appeared and them disappeared after awhile.. :) For that moment I felt God telling me to relax and that He is here, with me.

Shortly after the two stars disappeared another brighter star shone in the middle of the thick clouds down at me and in a minute it was gone.

Needless to say, I spoke less than what average women and probably men spoke in a day today.

Thanks perry bro for eh.. Buying me choc, studying with me andd choosing my clothes today. Although it was TOO much over the top. Lol.
And thank you baby for the dinner :D

'Searching high and low, i'm looking for a meaning'

Have got my darling phone together with baby B-)
Currently craving for urban pantry :\
Missing baby gay like tons!

Had a nice good talk before I head home. I didn't get pissed! :o Amazing, even though there was this info which I knew then you said something different, it didn't bother.
I'm impressed. LOL. -.-
Stupidity.. Remembering the past is so energy draining. Especially that past.

Prelims are next week! Well, I guess that's how the talk came about. HAH. I guess I'll be going home early alone and then i'll studyy... hmm :)

I'm currently taking 8 subjects :D
I know what you're thinking, how can cheyenne be so smart right? Well, I'm about to prove you wrong :D
English, math, science (chemistry & physics), Humanities (literature & social studies), Add maths, principles of account, chinese o'level (retake) anddddddddddddd........ CHINESE B :D
HAHAHAHAHA, 8 subjects aounds very very intelligent huh :D

On this day of your life, Cheyenne, we believe God wants you to know...
... that every little part of you is magical.

Yes, even the parts that hurt, even the ones that are feeling disease right now. It's alright to love what is in pain. More than alright, that's exactly where your love is needed the most. So why not touch that part that hurts and smile at it, at yourself through it, and whisper: ''I love you.''

Guess I'll miss my chinese class alot. :/ I already do.. Sigh, today the only class that was fun was chinese. Nothing else. LOL. Oh welllll....
Net was great :) I love the topic on passion. :D

Alrightt.. school has been pretty cool.
I got a bloody E8 for my chinese. Oh well, no biggie, a stepping stone tto the future.
Spill a small amount of milk and going on the the big future! AMEN! HAHAHA. Ahem..

Yes, DID YOU KNOW.. O.O How aids came about was because this man went to have sex with a monkkey. O.O How freakin' weird is thattt! Shit mannn... That guy is whacked. Alot of crazyy shit todayy. :)

About to finish the book Jolyn lent me. I relate to it so much as... I think I have cancer! D': I'm not faking, really, a tiny part of me. but I didn't got for chemo.. Oh well NVM -.- Nice book, I didn't cry though. :D HAH.

Love the picture, done by andrea lee & publised by joel neo.

On this day of your life, Cheyenne, we believe God wants you to know...
... that it's OK.

Just rest for a moment. It's OK. Yes, things are crazy, yes, the world is going nuts. Yet, deep underneath the stormy waves, there, in the core of your being, there is pure silence, pure love. And ... it's ... just ... OK.

I never got over the subject.
Life have been pretty stagnent, everything, everywhere. And my thoughts are going back to the usual place to used to be.

I get a little off when anything related or something that could be related to it is brought up. My insides would start to curl, my mind would start to race. Race back..
And it is no point shutting it back, because no matter how much I shut the door, (hell) I gotta accept, it always comes back out with a bang.

This definitely made me who I am. What I am now, how paranoid I could be sometimes..
I would freakin' roll my eyes and soon I feel numb all over follwed by a burning desire deep inside to kill. Kill you. It really didn't matter whatever that has happened before. I was more of an audience to a slow motion film then an actress in it. Hah.. Funny how it sounds (shrugs). I needed to make you pay. Bawl your freakin eyes out till they are sore from crying. Ditch you for a month and forget every important thing you said, just avoid you.
I ponndered on these thoughts much, really. But I don't really have the guts or the heart realy to do it. So I play it all in my mind in the end. Again and again, everytime the subject is brought up.

But Jo shot me this sentence that made me think a whole new lot.
"Why can't you just thank God for what happened, rather then grumble all the time"
It really made me think. Rethink the whole situation. Why can't I? Why can't I?? People make mistakes time and again.. No one is perfect. But then again.. It wasn't me. I showered in self pity (i freakin' admit) I always thought why am I the one who is always hurting? Godd... The world only revolved around me then. Not really, I just felt it wasn't fair.. I was experiencing more hurt then the other. I always ended up with the solution: A taste of your own medicine.

I started to calm down for once... Clear my head a little. And after that.. It didn't really matter.
And I felt better. Like the remainding hot air all released..

Love you.

He didn't want to talk to me for the first five minutes because I was inhumanely tall :( Stupid heels. Sighhhhhhhhhh....

Edge was fun :D
Haaha, sending retarded pictures via bluetooth was Double thumbs up. Hahaha.
Yeah, nearly beat joel neo to death today. Ahem, I apologise to a certain extend. Thus, I'm sorry. -.-
Then headed for like dinnner at tiong for fellowship, goodness the convo is like super funny and retarded lah, whoever wasn'nt there totally missed out. Thank God I didn't go home :P haha, after which we headed for like the arcade? Stayed for a bit.

Simply the craziest day, had a get church fellowship! Laughed like mad, i hopee the people at tiong won't mind. HAHAHAHAh. After all, we are happy church peopleeeeee :D kidding :P

Then had a long ride home. Great day :)

On this day of your life, Cheyenne, we believe God wants you to know...
... that doubt is the greatest gift, - it's the space between two certainties.

Any change on its way from one place of stability to the next one, passes through a period of doubt. Your old perspective has to disintegrate, and doubt comes in for a visit - even if only for a moment, before the new perspective takes root. Doubt is your greatest gift, because from doubt you can go anywhere.

A day with alot of moodswings in the morning, started off real bad :(
Then I think I was pretty caught up in that, and thus... Ohwell, lets see what my english marks turn out. :/ Hmm.

He looked like he was crying :/ Arghh, quite bad. Then after school he was better I guess cause he was with ryan. LOL. awww.. ALOT OF MOODSWINGS can already lah.
Sigh.. went to wisma. I think It is either my blue phone orr it is just my bad day.. where i get alot of weird smses from those weirdo people. SERIOUSLY.
One calls me hon, another acts all dumb.

You don't have to blantanly LIE. LIKE ITS RIGHT ON YOUR FACE : I'M AN EFFIN LIAR.. but you still wanna try your luck. heh.
Unknown: you at wisma?
Me: yeah? why, you here too?
Unknown: oh sorry, I send to the wrong cheyenne, ou lyingalaysia right now.
Me: -.- are you lying?
Unknown: no
hours later..
Unknown: hey! I'll be in singapore until aug, so sian have to help my junior LAST monday thrusday (whatevr else not day) for their o levels
Me: I though you in malaysia (-.-)
Unknown:Oh, i mixed up the two phones and i wanted to sms my girlfriend in wisma to get me something.
Me: Your girlfriend name cheyenne meh (-.-)
Unknown: yeah.. hard to believe my girlfriend had the same name as your huh?
Me: I thought she in malaysia?
Unknown: ya, I wanted to ask her to get something from me in malaysia.
Me: Malaysia got wisma?@ EH! I also want to check out eh, joels uncle satys there too maybe after o's i can go over ^^ where is it at?
Unknown: somewhere near where i live
me: where do you live
Unknown: I think i should sleep now.. gd night?
me: lol..
Unknown: very tried le..
unknown: gd night.
*some info removed*

Seriously, idiotic.
Anyway, hheaded to wisma to repair my phone. :'( ( I just realised my phone has some stuff i forgot to dig out :( ) Then bought lots of bread and halohalo. :D Then checked out central :D AWESOME HIGH shopping centre. Love the super long escalator rides :)

Headed home for net.

Then down again for dinner with baby, MET MY FATHER. O.M.G.
nevermind he ended up sitting with us again. Then he asked what was the rubberband on my wrist mean? what is it trying to prove? omg, not again... zzz. Tie hair? duh? Sigh anyway :) Baby's meal was awesome!!

The day ended nicely :D Wheeee. HEH. mocking, not really.
Found out that food really makes everyone happy. Or is it just us? Opps. HAHA.
But true enough, FOOD UNITES! 8) That was how we knew each other anyway. My church bbq. Hahahahha. Love you :)

My phone died on me in chemistry class, while i was in the chemistry lab at 1:45pm today.
My darfts which i was going to blog and reply my mail today was in that phone! And it died.
So penpal, if you see this.. I'm so sorry. My facebook is lagging as well.. SIGH! I can't even see the mail lah. Gosh.
And ya.. and to retype my blog post again -.--
My email...? I'm not even trying! facebook doesn't even want to cooperate! And i'm supposed to be studying...
Thank God I didnt right my heart felt stupid poems inside-.- (No its not freakin cheesy. Its more emo)

Baby was sweet enough to lend me his phone:) Thank you.
Ended off in a rather dead and slow and unexpected way... ._.
Maybe it was what I said.?
Maybe I made more mistakes than you. But whenever I recall back, especially back then, I don't feel sorry... and my body just goes through a series of adrenaline rushes, bad adrenaline rushes.

On this day of your life, Cheyenne, we believe God wants you to know...
... that decision is only wishful thinking until you take that first irreversible step.

You can tell yourself that you have already decided, that nothing now can stop you, but if that step backwards is so much safer than step forwards, what will hold you true to your path when the going gets tough? Sometimes, the right thing to do is to take that first irreversible step, the one after which you cannot go back. And now, for you, is one of those times.

Hey, again again. Happy birthday wailoong.

Well, we gave him his AWESOME birthday present which he is bound not to use it, just admire... admire..
Anyway :) Supposedly andre wanted to plan another movie outing today with all wailoong's ex girls and flings. I thought it was pretty cool. But that'll be alot! Haha.

So yeah.. walked up to school with wailoong, andre, ashraf and meiee.

Pretty fine day :D
Met baby after school and headed around commonwealth. So cool!!!! haha place 103 :P

The NDP is not bad la:)
So sad I can't spend it with baby:(
Somebody help me. My family is trying to make me obese and explode. I guess this is goodbye.

And that's it I'm freakin not eating for the rest of my life-.- SERIOUSLY

Wailoong's birthday celebration.. Heeheeheee. :p

Morning was pretty tired. Thanks jolyn for scarying the shit out of me in the morning. I'm so closing my eons whenever I'm at home alone. Jolyn came over passed me her esprit white pants and had breakfast :D then headed to Vivo to buy wailoong's present. OMG it was so embarrassing. See what see la -.- never see people buy before is it? Idiots.

Yes, anyway we decided on two.
We were very very considerate for both parties. HAHAHA. Omg, helping someone plan is actually kinda fun. :) Haha, my mind is still pure unlike breadbread lol.

So... we played pool (very very frustrated when I did - no, not because I didn't want to) then headed to botak jones to eat :) Woots:) i like the mexican chilli:D

Then walked the henderson wave :o the two idiots, andre and omar, reached it less than 20 minutes. Because I started brisk walking and they wanted to compete -.-

So whilst they did that.. Wailoong told his really really had story. :( Haha, it was kind of nice to know that we mean much to him la:)
Then half way wailoong needed the toilet. If kept looking back cause he was afraid we would run away! HAHAHA. Which andre and omar did. Damn funny andre had to hop twice like a bunny, shout 'let's go!' then runs off.
CUTE SIA.

Settled down. Jolyn just had to flick the stupid worm on ME :o

Nvm. We found another place to sit:) So we played taidee, and BRIDGE :D
Then we presented the 'lovely' gift to loong loong.
I know you loved it:)

I made baby wait for quite awhile! I'm so sorry :( anyway, I love you! :)