I am slacking in Singapore in the comfort of my own home after a hard day of WORK, pure work and not going out planning things out for tmr with friends:D I used to be like that. ahhh~

SIGHS. Not now, not again. I can't handle it. I've got o'levels. I actually I don't really know what i'm frustrated about.. Just really... Empty. Yeah, empty.

Darn, why now? Hmm..

I shall... Omg, i'm so tired:( is there even food? Daffodil is there food?

Eh, I think I know my problem.

I feel so like I 'cheated' myself of feelings for months. So sad.. I don't sound convincing as to how I feel :( well, I feel pretty sad about it :( But its alright, HEE :D

Watching the really retarded taiwan show now! Omg Omg Omg! HAHAHA I love it. Shucks.. Speaking about love, my love for mark, no no, the book mark is growing. O.O cause Jesus parables sounds so awesome! Haha, I'm finally learning something bout life rather than the end of it, which is way more awesome. I can't wait for Jesus to come down.. Then I'd use all my might... To just touch him. And I'll be healed. My faith will be healed! If only.. If only..

I never knew alot eh I realise :( I never knew jie jie rosemary did stage play in nafa. I never knew you felt that way in 9months. I never knew today will be the day I gave lame a whole new meaning. I never knew starting to read the bible from mark is not a sin (loves to read from the start of book). I never knew teri was getting married (Haha don't kill me!). I never knew I would feel so much pressure in my life despite the fact.. Nvm. I never knew o'levels is just a FEW days away. I never knew my deathbed will be on 26 oct. I never knew I could escape death by putting my faith in God (wait, I knew that). I never knew on the day I receive my results.. I'd be astonished, amazed, gasping for air.. ANY gas, anywhere! As I stare at my marks in such awe that cannot be described by any language or words summed. OHHHHHH! Low and behold! 9As! How did I do it?!

Not by my strength but Yours! Amen! :)

Today I found out I'm not really convincing as how I feel about certain things. Hmm.. I'm sorry. 9months eh, I feel cheated of my own feelings.. :(

Ahem, now watching the really retarded taiwan show. Omg! The retarded things people do to keep the ones they love close to them. WHAHAHAHA. Silly silly..

Sitting infront of me is a rather good looking mooncake.. *mouth water* I'm resisting.. Not really. Baby's noodles today were.. Mama-mia! Haha:) It seems the only thing I'm good at is really just talking, crapping, anything to do with the mouth. That's why... I want my newscaster job. By faith... I can't think of anything. Maybe psychology? Give the person no time to talk at all, until he has no choice but to agree to everything I say. MuaHaha.

Hmm.. Slowly reading the book of mark, I think Jesus is so cool! :x Haha ohwell:)

I went to my dream cafe today B-) 3monkey! With net members and baby:)

Well, di called me in the morning today to asks me how I was:) so sweettt, HAHAHA. And I studied with Nadine for awhile. Shortly after, I met baby after his really long day:) Then headed to 3monkey! As suspected my brother is working there. whahahaha with friend dominic, why, I always see him around with my bro. So yes, the food there.. I haven't really tried. But the smoothies look so bloody worth it! XD Ohwell, now home wearing baby's jacket B-) sleeping soon though.

'but you see.. If I'm not like that.. I'm might as well not be called cheyenne'

That is one thing I HATE being a girl. -.- The pain was bloody excruciating.. I couldn't even stand, it got worst when I tried to do anything then just shouting in pain. Even in my parents bedroom toilet they cannot hear me lo! God knows how long I was inside that God forsaken place with that God forsaken pain.

When they said doctor, I was like finally! Guess it was just prayer so God was the doctor. Well it came through in the morning at least. Bloody hell, I prayed so hard lo.

So yes, I didn't go to church today:( The pain comes and goes randomly.. I swear this pain really can kill. It just need to be a notch higher.

Yes, week has been kinda okay, I really really neeed a break through in my studies. I feeeeeel almost hopeless but not. HEH. Faith man. I heard someone saying that if you didn't do really well for o's you should go to NAFA. Well.. only his intention of going there is because the girls there are really hot... Now I'm beginning to wonder, wait... there's no need to wonder. I just think it is visible now. The path my life leads. No, I'm not going to nafa but someone else is. People change in their school don't they?

Talking about change, I'd this really creepy dream. Not really. Not creepy, just scary. When people change and you don't see it coming. Sheesh, is like you couldn't control your own head.

SO yeah, O's... I hate O's. I hate PSLE. I hate major exams. Darn. I'm having faith faith for a breakthrough. Especially within a month, I believe God will come throughh!!~ AMEN! :D

Yesterday's net rally was awesome mannn! :D haha, Carisser's PJ were so cute. Well at least how she looked in it HAHAHA. Clement's condo is freakin nice cann. The high rise buildings with water folwing everywhere. OMG, I wanna stay there! The gym is like okay lah, I guess the only thing that really impresses me in the buildings, the 5 swimming pools (so says clement) and the scenery. Awesome. What's more awesome?? FOOOOOD. I swear I'm a pig, I gotta stop this hannah, you gottta stop me, I can't do this anymore. Well, at least this is what me and carisser have in common. While everybody's attention is at shanna we might as well chiong at the food now.. HEHEHE. Ahem, Andrea makes the best dessert lah, I'm so glad to have her as a net group leader :D
Speaking of net group leader. Elizabeth stepped down today, not stepped down, more like.. moved up :D Haha, to the adult world. I don't want to be like that, all of a sudden I want to run away to neverland (or is it what it is called?) anyway, where's peter pan? Or if only joel had wings and he could fly. Hahaha. Drink red bull? LOL.

Yes, and I finally am on talking terms to ashleyyy! :) Yay, mission one down. Compassion man, I guess I really need that. :D Hehe, I hope to start lessons soon though.
Chris's pillow is soo comfortable :P heh, overall it was really good. Especially, the messages.. which i always can't seem to remember them after awhile..... But I remembered this one :D I think. Hehheh, I needa read my bible.

Ohwell, talking again about bibles. I really love Jesus's parables. They're soooo cool. LOL. DUH, He's the creator of everything and anything :) Hee.

Now getting ready for like church. Amazing huh? I finally blogged. HAH.

I'm waiting for you, that's all I can do right now. Is it me? Or is it just you? I remembered what kahjing which always put me in a spot. :( I can't help it, sometimes.. You just really got to let it go. And wait until it is ready. Or worse, it never will. Oh gosh, i've a bad feeling down my guts.

Morning was great:) not much of it anyways, spend my time slowly bathing and choosing clothes after which I head down to meet handsome :p Haha.

Studied awhile at ljs :) then ate the breakfast baby made. Uber nice! :D:D sadly, I can't cook for nuts though :( headed up stairs to put utensils and studied again now at the house whilst me bro play his stupid game. Looks stupid to me.

Played a few games after studying and headed down the the 'chinese place behind vivo' which turned out to be the hawpar villa :o damn its bloody scary! Thank God for baby :D

Then headed to meet sarah. Damn funny.
Me: hey baby, help me spot for sarah
Baby: spot for sports bra?
Andd, that's house her nickname came about. Isn't really funny now but... Ohwell :)

Headed home then out of the house for dinner at this ship. I nearly died of dizziness as everybody was. It was quite bad. But the food there was.. Not bad la! Better than nice:) Haha. Went there when we were kiddos! Ahh reliving the days:):)
I'm waiting for you still