De'cla(I)re Yourself

Troubled

2011-01-06T09:35:00.000+08:00

I really don't know what's wrong with me.

Why I feel this way,

Is it a sin to feeeeeel this way?

Last night I had a super terrible dream.

I can it can relate to life on different levels.

Like everything is so misplaced.

Like how I really saw my brother,

How I saw various people,

How I saw myself,

And lastly, how I really feel..

I feel lost.

I have no idea what's feeling where i feel like shit/invincible/unwanted/not needed/better off somewhere else/useless/not appreciated/ everyday.

I really don't. What is it?

God, why am I such a ball of nerves. I'm fine!

I just do not know why I'm feeling this.

2011-01-06T09:13:00.002+08:00

What's becoming of this?

Declared moved

2009-12-14T23:27:00.001+08:00

Heyyy, people I'm kinda using tumblr for now. Kinda, HEH HEH. SO yeahhh :D

Mua tumblrrrr :D

@God wants you to know.

2009-12-04T20:10:00.002+08:00

On this day, God wants you to know…… that a successful relationship requires
falling in love many times, always with the same person. Always with the same
person, but deeper and deeper every time. Each time on a whole new level you
together open in love and discover the truth of your beloved anew. There is no
limit to the beauty of your beloved. If yo…u think you’ve reached the end, stop
generalizing.

I feel very very lazy to update my blogger now :/ noooooooo. Not good.
I finished washing the plates, sweep the floor and clean the house :) Me mama's coming back tmr. & there's interview tmr. UGHHHH-.- NEHMIND. BREATHEEE........

Now I know why I can't stop thinking about the past

2009-12-03T23:31:00.000+08:00

It keeps coming back.

Lately something has been bugging. I don't know what.. But it makes me want to tear. Is like I never knew anyone properly clearly at all. I don't even know myself at all. I feels like I can't turn to anyone, what's the point letting them know more about me when I know less about them. Go to hell.
Omg God where am I?

If only humans were like penguins...
I wish my penguin wouldn't hurt me so bad.
Then again.... Everybody will hurt you, is just a matter of who is worth it.

My own mooon. ooo la la~

2009-12-02T23:58:00.003+08:00

Today was hesitating whether to go for lunch. Firt part was quite awkward lah, but nehhhhmind :) OMG, bryon had this really awesome huge patric starrr! whahahahaha. Yes, anyway, lunch was... alot. And vry unfinished due to... HMM, people having anti-carbs diet o.O and i'm sick. ._. Glenda's cupcake was awesome thooooo!!! Baby should have tried... :(

Nehmind, headed home rather tried. Then met baby afterwards xD IT'S A FREE EMO DAY TODAY :) I hope everyday is like that, it'll be sooo awesome. Then went to walk walk around the track, a way of slacking, and crapping. Hahaha, omg the last part was the stooopidest!
"I'm the car, you're the wheel. I'm the armpit, you're the armpit hair" WHAT'S THAT MAN!!!! AHAHAHA. Seriously high now, must be the white choc cupcake taking effect xD Mmm! I want somemore :( hahahaha.

Now adding nadine as my neopet friend. I'm surprised she still rmbs ALOT of stuff uh. She's on my VIP list! HEHEHEHEH. Ahem. Yeah, I guess I'm really retarded now :) Gotta get back to baby. :) Not gonna see him for... I don't know how long :'(

Hey my gorgeoous mooon,
Stay on this planet.
Don't roll over, cause I'd be back soon. :)

Created Neopets :D

2009-12-01T19:02:00.004+08:00

NEOPETS :D Wheeeeeee!!~
Kills my boredom time, created too little lovely well.. pets ^^
They're names areee super cool please! Doux and datadaDoi (gift form God) ahhahhah..
& so cute. Haha, shit, I better not be addicted to it.
I draining my aunts electrical supply :( Opps.

Ohwell, tomorrow will be the last stinking day I'd see whether I'd be taking up the IR or whatever job. God never came through.. :( *scratch head* So yeah.

I feel mentally wrong serioudly. I can't think straight.

And for the record, I love my blogger more than my tumblr.
Get well soon rolly polly ^^

@Rivelazione

2009-12-01T15:37:00.003+08:00

If going crazy could burn fats,
I think I'd be like a darn stick by now.

@God wants you to know

2009-12-01T14:30:00.004+08:00

On this day God wants you to know...
that today you have a cause for celebration. Today, you should celebrate what an unbelievable life you have had so far: the accomplishments, the many blessings, and, yes, even the hardships because they have served to make you stronger. Just as a gem cannot be polished without friction, nor can a life be perfected ...

I'm going to create a tumblr for fun. Since I'm so blooodyyyy bored.
Oh my, it aint going well :o How'd you do it?? ._.
Maybe i should play neopets.. I'm soooo very tempted... :/

I've no life.

2009-12-01T12:50:00.004+08:00

What bordeom does.
1. It kills you brain cells.
2. Make you think really crazy and stupid stuff.
3. Since you've nothing to think about present or future, you think about the past.
4. It makes you want to do something really stupid. Really stupid.

Stupid dream is making go crazy. Or maybe is just the aimless life I lead, make me feel like I'm back in that hideous moment living its killer routine and memories. I'd be out of it before I know it, Amen. :)

Finished my 5th book of pretty little liars - wicked already. Zzz. one good book that can entertain me and its going down so fast. If I could, I'd live in a library, I mean bookstore. :) Awesomeness.

The once used to be long day switches with the really boring ones.
Better suffering alone than making others suffer with you. :)

I'M GOING TO BE BETTERRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR!! :)

The Seventieth

2009-11-30T23:34:00.001+08:00

Hey babe,
Tho you're at work.. I wanna wanna sayyyyyyy, nothing actually.
When you finishing work huh huh? haha.
Miss ya.

Check out my $1 frolicks ^^ HEAVEN, thank you baby!!!

Will you marry me?

2009-11-29T22:27:00.003+08:00

Need Edward Cullen take sooooooooo long to say those words. Sheesh, GUYS. Hahaha. The dudes soooo hot! But I was sitting next to someone who was sooooo much hotter, omggg cheesy.

Anyway whole ride to class had a feeling of puking:( quite bad. So left after the first class to pass marcus back his notes too. Omgg, I finally heard a whole sentence which only consist of : wang lee home contacts eh (refering to the free contact lens vouch). Yeah, but just as he said wang lee hom his eyes glistened more. Its quite amazing, never seen anything like it. Haha.

Then went to catch new moon. Its pretty slow... Thank you baby though:) He had suffered the whole 2hour and 10minutes show asking alot of questions lost and confused. Silly, then headed for dinner at aunts house and he went to play lan :( Oh well, interview tmr:(

I really really hope, I get it. If not... God has better plans:)

& IF I WERE RICH, I'D TAKE BABY TO TRY ALL THESEEEEEE ^^

Boo, will be all alone tmr morning :/ sighh. I'd wish for a jacob now. Hah-hah -_-

soooooo hot. ;)

@God wants you to know

2009-11-28T22:19:00.002+08:00

On this day of your life, Cheyenne, we believe God wants you to know ... that
there is no such thing as conditional love.
Love is either unconditional or
it's no love. You might like someone conditional on their personality or
behavior or circumstances. But love accepts no boundaries. So never say 'I love
you because', for love has no cause, love comes from God.
hmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm:/

Know it's okay if you're irritated with me.
Cause' I feel quite irritated at myself too.

I feeeel like shit. Probably look like one too.

2009-11-28T21:23:00.007+08:00

Yeah, I do.

Finished the fourth novel of pretty little liars already. :)
Played guitar heroes again at Marks house. Had a full band today :D

Through You I can do anything
I can do all things
'Cause it's You who gives me strength
Nothing is impossible
Through You blind eyes are open
Strongholds are broken
I am living by faith
Nothing is impossible
I'm not gonna live by what I see
I'm not gonna live by what I feel
Deep down I know that You're here with me
And I know that You can do anything
I believe, I believe
I believe, I believe in you

SERIOUSLY, NO PUN INTENDED-.-
It doesn't even take a lifetime of happiness to make up for that one terrible mistake made (which you thought was okay).
It is. Not. That. Easy.
It is scientifically proven that people can remember bad memories better than good ones.
Because, they have bigger impact on the person.
Funny how you know dramas, all those people loose their memories when their lifes are perfectly fine. And how bad some people want so badly to lose it but they don't. But there's a reason for that I guess, well.. I came up with 2 possibilities.
1. to make you stronger.
2. to make you more careful.
3. just to make you more depressed.

Icantstopthinking,whycantistopthinking.IbetilooklikeshitiprobablyDOlooklikeshit,ughhhhhhhhhhhh.

Maybe its just a season, i really do hope so. -.-
I think I need another break, really long break..
And I mean a break to think things through.. Or maybe..
I don't know. What the heck do I know?

What if one day we went back to the past.
And instead of being you, you were being me, and me you.
I'll make sure I'll do it my way.
And if it happens again, i just got to let you go.

It is normal to be fickled.

2009-11-27T21:53:00.003+08:00

How come I dont rmb these @_@ I was probably too high then :/
But anyways, one of the red camp 6 photos :)

I had the entire day with baby today.
Hahahahahahahahahahaha, he's getting more irritated i can sooo tell.
OPPS :P

Played lan for awhile, ate tauhuey and checked out his laptop.
After which we had "fun off" net today.
MARK SUCK AT TABOO MAN, NEVER PLAY WITH HIM.
Ahem, ate dinner at long john and off to guitar heroes 5 at markos :)
Aweeeesomeeee, just lesser songs now. Hurry buy band hero markkk!

After about 2 hours of playing. My bro and mark got married at the void deck -.-
HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA.

Dinner @3 monkeys.

2009-11-26T21:50:00.003+08:00

Oh hey check out, I did my nails exactly the same way!
Hahaha, never doing it again.

Had a little aunt day today :) Then had dinner with rolly polly's colleague. They're fine uh, really nice. Me likely like the boss. Hahahahaha. Super cute uh.

baby folded this for me. Should have seen it, NONO you should have seen the look on Nelson's face when he went down for a bite. HAHAHA FREAKIN HILARIOUS.

Goodbye mummy, helloooo INDIA!

2009-11-26T14:14:00.004+08:00

Sorry for the picture, but I think its kinda cool. Not that they're.. NVM.

Sent me mother off to da airport today with my freakishly tall sissy.
I forgot to take a picture with her. HAHAHA But we had a fun time in the train laughing at our little brother and rather racist jokes.. :x hehehehe.
Lil bro: How are you doing.
Mom replies something like i'm fine sweetheart listen to yadayadayadayada and you know stuff mothers usually say.
Lil bro: Can I sms you when your in india.
Mother: No, you can't. It's very very very expensive.
Lil bro: Then can you give me the adress to india (or something like that)
: ( replies again to correct his english) I mean address.
HAHAHAHAHA. WTHHHHHHH, so cutee, that fat thing.

Anyway, did a little shopping there. Omg, Victoria's secret lip gloss-.- AND this really nice bracelet which I thought was a necklace but it's a bracelet. But it'll be a very nice chocker if it was JUST A BIT LONGER :( NOOOOOO.
Screw the maker. >:(

Headed to city hall after that to buy my mag after what seems like forever, 2 years of not reading dolly. God knows, kinda like it. Better than surfing the net for pictures all day and updated notifications. I'll dieeeeee. Then window shopped with sissy a bit. hahahahahaha, so fun :D Tried clothes on. Sissy looked nice in korea mother looking dress. O_O Anyway, afterwhich i headed home...

AND I'M SO SORRY DEVYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY :(
PLEASE FORGIVE ME. I FEEEL SO DARN BAD, REALLLLY :(

So now my aunty's coming home. Apparently she was in town too. -.- (And I asked myself this question... I came here because........ -.- *slaps head) Never mind that. I'm finally getting my pretty little liars novel 4th book! JOLYN YOU READING THIS. HAHAHA. I can't wait. Sleepless nights again. xD

AND I REALLY REALLY WANT THESE NAILS. :O It's kinda cool :x

;D

2009-11-25T19:56:00.002+08:00

I'm doing my resume now! :)
hehehe!
Guess I won't be meeting baby today again.
Oh well, know what? Screw work.
>:(
Kidding!
:>

A Cheyenne Valentine's Day

2009-11-25T01:26:00.000+08:00

Hmm, its late. Just finished watching my brother play assasins creed 2, its awesome but its so slow. -.- ugh, I'd rather play it myself.

The job person asked omar to call tmr. I hope it'll be something good. I'll have faith. Yay, can't wait:)
Then had parents anniversary dinner as a family:) Rather rare, it's like one in a million! Anyway, we're celebrating as a family because my mom's going to india for a holiday alone. I'm rather worried-.- May a big strong muscular angel follow her wherever she goes. Daddy's working late today too:( ugh. Dinner was fun recalling back the past.
My Sissy just remembered me crying when I was bullied and my older brother going : WO YAO BAO CHOU!
Hahaha so cute. I don't remember tho.. Hmm. I only remembered how he punched me and dragged me because I was waving to his stalkers. ASS. Whalao, now you know why I hit people so much. Its heritage. LOL.

Anyway, mentalist was awesome today! Wait, when is it never?

And after ALL THAT, I lie on my bed. All I could remember was valentines day. HMM, I just reminded myself that.. Why does that date always sound so bitter. Not that I have no dates or I crave to have one (tempting tho when you had none, you felt pathetic, LOL, to a certain extend^^)
I don't know... Its so weird, how that day always passes by badly each year. So awkward, is like.. things I would assume i'd get. I do get. Just.... From the wrong person at the wrong time. Is like they could give me sooner, i'd be in seventh heaven by then. BUT ohwell, I think its just me. :D

Sucks tho. Next time marriage HOW. DIE LA, sua la. Hahaha kidding:)

Still, trying to recall the sweetest day of history can be so bitter.

Massive pms

2009-11-22T22:16:00.001+08:00

I get pissed at every single little thing now.
Infact, i'm very pissed now.

I really need God at this point

But guess what, I got the shushi i wanted :D HEEEEEEEEEEEE

Red camp 6 @ngeeann

2009-11-21T11:09:00.004+08:00

NINJAS OII!
Went for red camppp. whoooo.

Not bad uh, alot of free stuff and freakin awesome food and sls too. :D

The on the last day we had zouk out at ngeeann o.O Ohwell, that was my first. :x I was oooookkkaaaaayyyyyy laaaaaahhhhhhhhh. HAHAHAHA.

Berrylite, berry bright. First berry I see tonight.

2009-11-20T11:18:00.000+08:00

It's like 100% fat freeee :O Job offer sucks,

maybe we'd just go for the great world one.

I FEEEL FAT EVEN STARING AT IT O.O

Today's net group was awesomeeee, I gotta apply it in life man. whooooo!

ANDREA MUMMMYYYYYYYYY :D

Picnic!

2009-11-16T13:03:00.004+08:00

HAHAHA I can't wait for picnic!!:):):)

Today paper was easy, screw it. O's over. YES:D
Headed to jo's house to prepare food. Oh MAN i'm hungry! Javscona's own picnic! I'm super excited!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! (you can see from the spamming of exclamation marks :O)

WHEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE :D

Anyway, it was alright.. Wailoong bought FHM (for horny men) because he needed entertainment. me and jo made shepherd's pie and agio olio while dine bought caramel pudding :D haha awesome uh. Though some people was really late-.- ohwell.. :)

Rained sooned after. Headed to macs to stay. Played "I never" HAHAHA. "I never bought a FHM before" WHoooooooo! Awesome, after awhile we ran out of water and we couldn't play :( then headed home.

What's wrong?

2009-11-14T19:56:00.001+08:00

Watched 2012 with family today, its something like noah's ark. Quite cool, but scary. If the end is really going to be like that... I don't really wanna be in it. I thought it would be cool. Guess not. Saw Nadine and friend :) Then... Boomz. Yes, boomz-.-
Shouldn't have sulked, I didn't. I should have controlled my emotions better. Sigh, thanks for everything :)

If I could have asked for something, it would be that.... Not most of the people I hang out with were guys. If I could turn back time and some how some where, I wouldn't be so... Tomboy-ish.
But what could I say, I wasn't the one who created me. My creator had a reason for this.

But I don't know what.

Sunflower sunshine

2009-11-13T19:53:00.006+08:00

I've got friends I can never forget. One who is deeply self obsessed with herself, one who can never remember the tune to beautiful saviour, one who never seems to grow, one who is a freakin pro at pool, one whose nose never fails to run, one who always get go trouble with her mom, one who use to rear lizards now rats, one who has never changed, one who has completely changed. Damn... I miss primary school.

Dinner was cancelled due to the freakin rain:( so ate at long john again. I bet it was julia. Thank God for wisdom though, me, wx and twin ate already :) Haha.

After which took awhile to decide where to go. Then decide on pool. Was roughly alright:) played with the girls, super slow. I bet when we played one, the rest finished like 5. Then switched with the guys. Me and julia were one vs ken and steven. Haha. We won! Tho it was freakin ironic how we did :D laws of physics :p

Then played with ben and maurice. Me and maurice vs julia and ben. Hahaha, we kept winning. Ben's really good tho, his ball kept flying to very distant places O.O

Headed to plaza for dinner.
Hamy: hey! Your first three nails look like a traffic light!
Lionel: Your nails are quite cool.
Then continued talking about stuff like how lionel captured a lizard in a bottle wrapped it in newspaper and gave it to mrs singh. How Mrs Goh always wore the same clothes and how her hair never grows. HMMM. How tania drew mrs goh in class. How we met venkat! How I created the really retarded tsunami video with alot of nasty comments. :p Then we proceeded with mockin ju. That was the best part. Hahaha I forgot how it started tho. Oh yes..

Me: elvea's always self declaring peoples love for her. Like Its so sweet of you to admit Devy will miss me.
Elvea: no its truee. Its truee.
Me: I bet when you reach home you'd go on facebook; I know cheyenne loves me! *Spam ♥*
Julia: Omg what's with people and facebook I can never understand.
Someone: oh yeah, go create facebook
Julia: nooo never!
Me: eh that's it we go create fb for julia the her status shall be: i'm short and i'm lovin itttt *spam hearts*
*laughs. Continue jokin
Julia: omgg, i'd rather suicide.
Me: don't worry we'd post it on facebook, twitter, tumblr, onsugar: bye my lovely readers i'm going back home now *shows picture of ju standing at the veranda*
Lionel: But she's too short to climb over.
Me: yayaya! Then shortly after she comes back posting: hey guys, i didn't make it. I couldn't climb over cause i'm too short. *shows pic of ju struggling to climb*
HAHAHAHA. Hilarious..... JULIA HURRY CREATE AN FB OR I WE WILL.

Bestfriends

2009-11-12T23:58:00.002+08:00

I remember the time not long ago
When we laughed and shared it all
We were the very best of friends
Or at least that’s what I thought.
I often wonder why friendships end
What happens to sever that tie
How can someone once so close
Just wave you off with a good bye
I must have been lacking
I must have been wrong
I wasn’t the friend to you
That you were to me all along.
I thought I was loyal
I know I was true
But something went wrong
Now there’s nothing to do
A friendship lost
Is a very sad thing
The angels weep instead of sing.

I hate this part right here.

2009-11-12T23:16:00.006+08:00

On this day, God wants you to know...
... that you are perfect as you are. God doesn't create faulty life. No. Everything created by God is perfect, and so are you. So stop driving yourself mad with endless ways to improve, and just accept the glory of your being as is.

I don't know how the story goes, but it's something like that.
It hit me like a struck. Oh well, here goes..

A blind bride was going to get married but before that she went for an operation as someone has donated a pair of eyes for her to see.
On her wedding day itself, she was allowed to take out the bandages on her eyes.
Husband: would you marry me?
As the wife unwraps the bandages to see, she found out that her husband was blind. At this she ran away knowing that he was unable to see.
The husband stood there and cried saying for before they were your eyes they were mine.

I wanted to cry, but i had no energy to, besides.. my dad was there. LOL.

CLB, would be easy? Like super easy? :) I hope I pass.
Then rot the bloody whole day at home thinking well.. I don't know what I was thinking. :( Baby had work.... I want to work to.. :(

Anyway had a call from HR from baby today. HAHAHAHA. It was sooooo weirdddddddddd. Quite funny, I'd rather do his job then do sales. Then again... maybe not. He always ends so late :( SIGHHHHHHHHHHH. I bored to death. Sooooo I pained my nails rainbow!! :DD

IM'MA CHEESECAKE :D

With multi colored coated icing on top.

That's what you get when you let your heart win.

2009-11-10T21:41:00.002+08:00

Think back over the last day, - what could you have taken with delight that you just skipped over?
I feeel so guilty now.

Mother tongue paper was a b-b- Whatever. :) Praise the Lord for whatever outcome.
Went to study with Jo at starbucks after that. It's just inches away, actually, it's already here!
After which went home to slack, watch this really nice korean drama. I realised... shows just like in real life, there are people who just pissss the hell out of people. They seem so trust worthy with their sharp tongue and sly knowledge. Whatever, they'd get what they get one day.
Even watching the show makes me blood boil. Omg, so much hatred.

Anyway, I think I should find a job sooon. Hmmm, still thinking.. :)

When someone wants to be a part of your life they'd do it.
It's not the words that counts, it's the actions.
It's not the actions that count, it's the heart.

Break fasted.

2009-11-09T22:02:00.003+08:00

On the first day of media fast, this is what I did.
I saw Yuwen for the first time.

On the second day of media fast, this is what I did.
I went out with wx and joel and randy and their sec school mates to watch jennifer's body. And boy, does it suck like hell. Thanks God for ~~Simon's~~ Randy's earpiece tho.

Baby marcus :)
On the third day of media fast, this is what I did.
I watch a really nice korean drama, played ps3 slim with my sissy and ate this really nice pasta :D OOHHHHH!

On the fourth day of media fast, this is what I did.
I broke my media fast because i was too bored at home plus watch movie with jo, vinod and wailoong - my girlfriend is an agent and saw sammy and his gf. AND ATE ASTONS. Plus buy baby brownies ;D

I'm done for the day!

When the clock strikes 12.

2009-11-04T23:12:00.000+08:00

Going away for a month, having a media fast with church. I believe miracles will happen :D Haha. So long.

What the heck?!

2009-11-04T16:07:00.004+08:00

One of the hot topics on the Chinese internet is the Post-90s generation (people who were born after 1990, Chinese teenagers). The general impression is Post 90s kids are going out of control, behaving badly. They could have metal problems and are co-engaging in sexual activities way too early, etc

Are you thinking, what I'm thinking?

Cause I think I so am.

What has the generation become really....?

Post-It Fanatic

2009-11-03T23:41:00.001+08:00

What would you do, if you didn't hurt anymore?

-iTouch application

Studied with Na-dine (how krishy would pronounce) today.
Every part of me smell of macs now. Had twoo meals & and ice cream all shared. HAHA. I remebered how we were mocking idiots waiting for sentosa clove to come out until nadine found out you can actually win 50000 with that.
After which, we both upsized our meals and prayed for sentosa clove HAHA. Damnnn stupid. We didn't get a free meal either but it was worth for the fun.

Nadine: They just kissed! omg, G-R-O-S-S!

M: OMG, WT* #@?! WHERE? The black absorbent? O.O

Nadine: Best part is the guy looks like he's from the retard school!

M: Ouch!

Pasted post-its on the forever opening door. (Screw.. ) It worked!! hah, expect for a really ignorant worker. Kept our heads staring at the door whenever someone opens it. If it closes... we'd turn back too whatever we were doing. Ohwell..
We loveeee post-its, HAH.

Window shopped for awhile after that.

After a long while, its kinda nice.

P.S: Wo jiu xi huan is i'm loving it meh? LOL.

Lovette Vous, ;)

2009-10-31T22:59:00.002+08:00

Today was reaaaalllyyyy messy! NEHmind, forget. Just as I was about to kill, I think God wanted to me to work on that so....... I didn't. My anger release is faster now, I guess... that's a good thing?

Anyway, he's so sweeett. Haha.

Tumble and fall.

2009-10-31T00:05:00.002+08:00

It's sweet how the He still stays faithful to his wife even though she has already died.

Anyway, today's amath was huala, really God's blessin. Went to school early to get contacts from Jo, heard loads of crap. NEHmind. After which went to find Mr wong who gave us questions to do. All the questions he gave minus the matrix one.. Came out. ALL. I'm completely stunned. I wouldn't say it was a breeze but an imitation of it. God's good :).

Had the rest of the day having a headache after my exam. Ironic much, really hurts. Met my aunties for dinner. Talk about her new zealand trip! :D
Creepy haunted house, beautiful scenerys and alot of....... Clumsy acts. SIGH. Si.e si.e... Had frolick too!
I'm fat now. HAHAHA.

Had net talk session with the dudes.. ' what age do you want to get married ' LOL. Questions coming from guys.. Are intriguing.. HMM. HAHA at least I know now! :p
Zan these days have been freakin hilarious.
Doing poa in the middle of the night now, can't use bloody com. Sulk* ugh.....

You know those type of feelings when you gave up something for your friend who you thought it would last. How you shared every single bit of your life with them. And now when you look back it seems all a waste now.? Hmm.. Life sure has its own way of turning around don't you think? :) Silly me. God's always been there though if you had just turned your head round.

OH! Jolly sixteen months lovette:)

O hallehlujah.

2009-10-29T22:23:00.003+08:00

Lord, today I leaned on You.
Tmr I need you to carry me through.

Lovette cooked this for me the day beforeeee, freakin awesome uh. OMG, I'm a failure at cooking!

Mouth watering :)

As Bittersweet :)

2009-10-28T23:36:00.001+08:00

My source of knowledge, You.

Anyway, my maths paper today. I did my best, I don't want to rejoice like I will pass with flying colours! :\ Hmm, it always comes back the opposite. Ohwell, after school met baby today :D He was pretty tired and crazy, today's damn windy! Me likey ;)
Then really bittersweet at times. Overall, it was fine:) Silly lovette :D

HAHAHA imagine the day Jesus comes down like the bible say on clouds of fire, as quiet as a thief in the night. Then He goes like..... My here my CHILD. HAHAHA okay Nvm. Inside joke. I'm sorry God. Can't wait for your arrival :D

Had pretty weird dreams lately. Its SO weird, I can't put my mind of it...

i'm counting on God tmr! Help me!

Chocs Frocs.

2009-10-24T22:44:00.000+08:00

Had me waiting in the cold,

Had me no where else to go.

Hah, I'm bored. Came out with this lyrics//words outta the blue.

Can't wait to see babyyy, this are the super fattening chocs he gave. ;D

New moon

2009-10-24T17:49:00.001+08:00

Omg, this is so awesomeeee. Gahh, Jacob so hot.

Wow, last it he was so different ahaha

GUM&HELIUM

2009-10-23T21:12:00.002+08:00

MUST WATCH:D

Sweeeet dreams, lovette.

2009-10-23T20:14:00.002+08:00

Anyway, yesterdays practical was A.W.E.S.O.M.E man!

A. I didn't drop any test tubes!!! ;)

B. I wasn't hyperventilating *double thumbs up!*

C. I was superrrr calm.

D. Everything was just so... perfect.

Really really, all glory to God! Marko and zan got the same answer too!

On top of it all, Mr koh made my day. Physics length answer (best) would be 80-85. I got 81.1! Woooots, first time in my wholeeee freakin 2 years of practical, I had never done so perfect.

God can do miracles! Heeee :D

So yes, Jolyn just confirmed today that the answer is carbonate and sulfate ya'll!

Ms chan knows what she's talking about, she saw us doing it, she can prove. If it is not.. God still is goood :)

Baby came back yesterday :D Yayyyyy, :) I'm really really glad. Got me almond choco, white choc almond (my fav!) Tho I should have kept my mouth shut really.

ANYWAY.

Today studied with Jofolinfin at starbucks tahday. Met nicole from 2/5 last time, havoc. LOL Nothing much uh, studiedddd then ate at burger shack :D Whooooo! Should go there on day, its awesome! Somewhere near island creamery a few blocks down, too bad if you don' get it. HAHA :)

Sorta worried for my maths, neglected it quite bad. Struggling to cast my cares to Him and let Him do everything. Besides that.. studying at marko's house tmrrrr! :D Gonnnaaaa be awesommmeeeee! (Amen)

Yes, God loves you. Very much. Unconditionally. Like a mother loves her child, unconditionally. Even as she slaps her baby's hand to protect from being burnt by a fire, her love infuses her whole being. So with God. God's love for you infuses the whole Universe.

Love you too dad :D

Praise the Lord

2009-10-22T15:47:00.001+08:00

Even in bad times... Praise Him. That's so... ― damn hard! But I'll try. I totally failed my test. So..... Tsks. Breathe. Its just another one of those once in 2months. (Come to think about it, that's really long o.O WHY?!

Yupp, its just another of those periods. Stooopid devil. I hate you.

Breatheee, breatheee... They just chose this day. No. The devil just chose this day. What a bitch.

The wind blows everything back to dust

2009-10-21T21:44:00.004+08:00

Studied today with Di and Twin (ass). For A-While... tsk, cause... Joel Seow had to go off to library to study with his friends leaving di all alone. Ate after that then headed to mrt.

OH OH, speaking of which, we caught the wrong bus to Js house this morning because of di. We even ran.! Tsk di, tsk! haha, No worries lah, people make mistakes.

Anyway.. waited for physics textbook. Then Wx decided to follow Js, so i made my way to Markos place where I meet Andre, Marko and puppy dog. Soo cute :D haha, studied :)

Not bad...

IT'S ACTUALLY QUITE CONDUCIVE :D

Oh nooo, i'm gonna sound like those ahlians now.. I'll give it a tryyy :D

Here goess!

I cnt waiit ferr babiieeszx to c0mezx bckk frm malaysiiazxzxzxz! <3

Gross-.- Anyway, yeah. I can't wait! Aha.

Counting down to arrival

2009-10-20T17:24:00.001+08:00

Sweet sweet. The faster you come back, the faster all of this ends.

Spongebob needs to get wet.

2009-10-19T16:37:00.004+08:00

Doubt holds you landlocked in paralysis unable to move either way. The time you spent doubting is the time you are not alive. So, rid yourself of the doubt, take that step one way or another, your heart knows what is best, but take it right now.

Sent baby off today to malaysia :'( Jinggg tiannn bu huiii jiaaaaa!~ I remember zan singing that, her singing itself.. I don't know, it can make you laugh. Anyway, yes.. so he'd be gone for awhile :( Now with my di and ASS. Finally able to use the com! Ughh, so many things to do so little time.

Real tired now, going off to stay at my aunts house today and catch the mentalist with me Godma :D WHOOO, the show rocks, you must watch it.

Hope baby is doing fine :)
Studying with region o'levers this wednesday! Can't wait ;)

When love sweeps you.

2009-10-18T17:28:00.002+08:00

Went for Andrea's birthday like some marriage occuring lo. LOL. Sadly had to leave early cause we had NLT :( But anyways, zan was being bloody hilarious!! HAHA HER SINGING.. everything started from yesterday, her cheena accent and her heart felt fantasizing bout dudes were just the highlights of the day. hahaha.

Anyway, spent time with baby before tris trip tmr :)

Busting Science Facts

2009-10-16T18:24:00.002+08:00

Okay, did study @ 4am with Jo and Vinod today. Followed by Andre @ 6 and wailoong @ 8.

Awesome! It was said to be scientifically proven that your brain works better at 4 am. It's true! Haha, studied 7 hours non-stop that day, frreeakin cool.

After which, followed baby to eat lunch at bugis ;)

My first time eating scisors rice. It's really nice.

Headed home to charge the iTouch then headed to aunts house with babe. Gosh, sissy and her friends were absurd screaming at the top of their lungs. Now that's why... girls are so annoying. Ahem, anyway, sent family off to new zealand :'( Sniff, I want to go toooo. :/

nvm.
Net group today was awesome ^^ Look at daryl and his cute puppy dog. It slimmed down alot compared to its owner :x

Relive the moment

2009-10-16T17:43:00.000+08:00

My own chef :D

2009-10-15T21:14:00.002+08:00

Baby help us cook lunch today :D In quite awhile, missed his cooking. Haha..

Awesomeness!!

The spirit resist, the flesh takes in

2009-10-12T23:20:00.003+08:00

I like where I am now, that's not good.. That means i'm probably gonna get yanked out of my comfort zone. And I don't know whether I've reached my destination yet, or whether it has started.

Run all you want, they are all gonna come back twice on you. Every single one.

"Love you never the minute it ends suddenly" - pingpong song.
Quite sad, alot of them happened already. I guess its the clearing period laa. Haha. Ashraf the other day told me that scientifically proven that all relationship would last longer after the third year. Because... Yeah of 'sian-ness'. Haha. Oh well..

My dad just came out and paused for a really long second: cheyenne?
Omg, he can't even tell his own daughter. HAHAHA. Cute sia. Meanwhile he doesn't allow me to use the com! Ugh, tsk! I needed to blog:\ ohwell guess have to use my phone. Haven't replied penpal yet tho. Didn't meet baby the whole day either:( Haha, the call was an awesomely crazy. Damn cute ah that fella xD

Jokes aside, i'm trying really hard to not let my head go loose.
OH, and I had pretty cool thought today:) I think not doing very well for psle wasn't a mistake. I think it was to get my out of that rather screwed life I was living. Looking back, it was hell uh I admit. Thank God my parents were the ones who chose the school, thank God st. Margrets or Queenstown didn't take me in. If not one i'd be either a bimbo or a lesbo the other i'd be living the same screw life. (No offence) Why outram? Although yes, the majority does consist of alot of lian and bengs i met people who brought me back to God. :D The two very on fire for God christians I know. So at least I can be here today, not living the life I used to have. Not knowing I would have lasted nearly 16months with a guy who was once shorter than me and a mended childhood friendship, etc eta HAH :)

Break my heart for what breaks Yours. Show me how to love those who deserve none. Ugh its so hard-.-

Melodious

2009-10-11T23:32:00.001+08:00

Today, started frist NLT 2 class, couldn't find the class lo, pretty sad. Thought we got scamed real bad. Haha, oh oh! And baby marcus grew realy big and cute now :D gahhh! Hahaha.
After which me and baby headed around singapore, :D I spoke a word to the tree to move, and i had FAITH. So it will move!! :D Haha.

Sleeepppy

2009-10-09T01:10:00.002+08:00

Alright, Im ponning school tmr! Today actually. For reasons:

1. The DURATION IS BLOODY NOT WORTH IT.

2. My teachers are so dumb excluding like, mr wong, ms you. I don't benefit from anything-.-

3. I go there just to sleep, usually i'll use that time for poa or amaths.

4. I do not want to get my money EXORTED from my won form teacher

" beg, borrow, steal" YA, WHO DOES THAT. SERIOUSLY, what's wrong with MOE nowadays? Then again, he might be the minority.

That's all.

STUPIDDDD. Should really stop complaining, i'm tearing for no reason lately like alot. I must be happy!

Anyway, had a really meaning talk to today, I realise eh, you don't really know all to a person even tho a person appears happy and rowdy and whatever not. I don't know, these people are always the lonely ones. This is not pity mind you.

Anyway, tmr.. up for my study break ;) and stationary shoppingggg, wooots :)

God hath blessed me inddeed.

II LLOOVVEE YYOOUU DDAADDYY GGOODD! *hearts*

I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me.

Amen! ;)

Through the hole.

2009-10-07T19:33:00.005+08:00

Next time when I look back through the hole to my past, I won't see you. Or least not that clearly. I think we all would feel the same way.

Today was a rather screwed day thanks to krishy. God, I don't understand what I did to deserve such a stupid and ignorant teacher who only insults his students-.- WHAT KINDA TEACHER IS THAT. SERIOUSLY?? Very guai lan you know not.. UGHHH.

I didn't know why i came to school today. Although it was progressively quite fun til krishnan had to ruin it-.- Whhy can't I have Mr Samson Wong? AT LEAST he is willing to teach-.-
Amaths was super dying state. Talked alot with chuuu mun :) Haha, Damnnnn funny. Or fun.

Maths and english was rather funny too. HAHA. What 'circle of trust' man. It damn sick but quite knowledgable lah.. I guess.. Haha. Stupid antique like what the helll.. Lunch was the besttttt! I caught up with a wailoong sarah and all. Really funny talk ;) So nice since we've been like that.. Talk about alot of stuff too ;) Man, I do miss you guys.

Science shaun and amutha was GIGGLING AT THE BACK OF THE CLASS -.- What the hell. Before that she was talking to herself beside me. SO creepyyy! And now amutha and shaun are good friends. I'm happy for both :) HAHA. Stupiiddd shuan-.-

As usual, being a bitch, he kept us late. Then studied with Jo, Loong and Chuu til 6:30. The walk back was awesome too!

I think I'm really blessed. Just giving that ten, that small amount, that insufficient amount. God blessed me 10 fold. Yesterday was something so amazing. After studying at starbucks with baby we headed to an ice-cream shop, that day itself I would not say I've very little bit not alot either. As I was passing my 2 bucks to Joel so fell into a gap. Shocked and stunned we peeped through the gap for my two bucks. Little did we know, 20 bucks was also there. I was COMPLETELY STUNNED I TELL YOU. Well then baby said just take it for blessing, and i densely nodded my head amzaed eh. No one would stupid drop 10 bucks there really. It was rreally a miracle uh. God's good. :)
And did I mention? My granny is backkk :) now every morning I've breakfast ! AND I PASSED MY POA MOCK. Excuse my enthusiasm, I'm not that good in poa, so its obviously a miracle ;) Praise God man!!

Wailoong was telling us about, now, Mdm chow's wedding.

All her friends there helping were all her secondary school friends.

So next time when I get married.. (AHEM)

I'LL INVITE YA'LL K! HAHAHAHAHAHA.

I can't wait to see you all grow ehh :')

On a very random note, I miss Baby, haven't been talking much ehh.. Ohwell :(

Til death do us part.

2009-10-04T01:56:00.003+08:00

I just don't like how people can fake death so easily, after all, death does take an unexpected turn in life. I'm sorry.

Today i'd my butt out the whole day pretty tiring and stinky! Sheesh, ain't going no where. I woke up pretty late thing my dad's got the car. To my dismay he didn't soo I managed to reach school for poa. Irony: I brought my poa pad but no question paper. Smarttt only-.-

On a lighter note, happy birthday brown cake :) it's been a real torture and pleasure knowing you this 4 years. I told you the 'bond' was unbreakable ;) Supposedly I was supposed to go for lunch with sara, ashraf and vinod. But apparently.. I think they wanted me there for the money. Sad but I didn't chip in, am going to chip in with javsco. Sat there staring at each other like idiots, really-.- I made a darn mistake. But our boredom was shortlived when the excess mamas went to get the present:) we switched shahul, sara and ashraf's belongings. Damn funny!

Met Zan, and then vinod again. They went home without exchanging their stuff back. HAHAHA shahul's pencil box!

Caught up with what's happening in church and went for youth ministry! I met another joel and this guy who sounds and looks kinda like jeremy jo. Lol.

To my horror, caleb came. :o I thought he was in malaysia with his girlfriend which is coincidentally is ALSO called cheyenne in wisma shopping. (Ya. You didn't know malaysia got wisma right? Me neither.) If he didn't lie at least would be nicer eh or at least on talkable terms.. Not my fault-.- Sat at the direct end some more (so nearrr him). Thank God for joel yap! Greatest condolences though. He's got a new phone! So cool! B-)

Met baby after his work in little black mist :D hehe. Ugh! Miss that dough, so nice to hug. Haha.

And I can finally download songs on my own!:)

Its LATE. :o
Jesus beautiful saviour:)

My boomzx friday :DDD

2009-10-02T20:06:00.003+08:00

Cheyenne got a message that on this day, God wants her to know...
... that to worship God you must go beyond words to speak with your heart.

You can mouth the words of a prayer all day long and just waste your time, unless you also speak with your heart. And to speak with your heart means to embody first. If you pray for love, be loving. If you pray for wealth, be generous. If you pray for health, practice health yourself. What is your favorite prayer? How can you begin to embody it?

I HAD ENOUGH.
Of getting downloaded songs from other people.
I want to download my own. I'm kinda tired to asks, i'm kinda tired to be illegal. But buying the cds are too very hard when you only like a few songs. Why is being legal so hard? Still... I need to get my own songs. I guess that's a great relief to many. Hahaha.

Assistant net leader, and I haven't grown. Even if I did. I don't feel anything.. :\

Currently want alot of songs. I'm going to burst my pathetic phone memory has not enough space for both photos and songs. I would not say its a need. But I would very much.. Like to have a camera and an mp3.

Adding on, I would love to work soon so I would get my pocket money soon!:) through myself in smell of new pages from the books, papers and pens:)
Currently, I've got an 1hour - 10dollar pay:) can't wait to finish my grade 8 tooo so I can teach piano.

MUAHAHAHA. My brother is leading net today! Hopefully my turn doesn't come anytime soon. :s

Oh oh oh, nagging aside! And I want to share what God has food for me:)
3weeks ago, I wanted to give my tithe and offerings to God but my flesh got a hold of me. I thought.. If I give all my money now, I won't have money to eat. And God don't want me to starve does He? :) after that for 3weeks I struggled in giving my tithe. But I put in effort last week, despite me serving for children's ministry, I still gave. And I can say, God knows my heart and heard me. I really repented.. And this week I've got more than what I gave. Haha. Very happy eh!:D (No not because of money)

Struggle to remember

2009-10-02T19:06:00.000+08:00

You'll never know until you lose it. You'll never know until we're all not around. But I guess it doesn't matter to you now. I don't know when it started or how we all drifted one by one. By it doesn't matter now, all absorbed in our own worlds, only few get to stay in touch and together. Needless so say, some closer than before and vice versa.

With a heavy heart, I don't know what to think about you anymore. True it's not your fault. I'm not blamming you. But whenever I needed you there.. you just aren't anymore, it's like your name is no longer in my dictionary. Your figure I struggle so hard to remember. It is like meeting us now is a chore rather than a delight. Well then, who are you going to lean on when you've troubles? We seem to be the escape route for your troubles. No offence, but.. No matter how frustrated I am now at you. I do miss you, I guess we all do. We just can't see why you've turned out to be like that or have always been.

Ya, okay, you might say.. we do not know you well enough.. we don't know what you're going through. We DON'T KNOW how hard it is to go through your life. But the thing is.. You never tried telling us your problems, you were forever so secretive about your life. When asked about your week, without seeing for like what? freakin long, you just answer a simple fine.

You can't blame us for not moving away from you. As you yourself have moved from us when we tried to be there for you. We did, maybe you didn't see. Maybe it seemed as if we didn't try. But how can it be when everybody is saying the same thing? Then are we all wrong?

This is not to make you guilt ridden, more of think through it. I don't know.. now whenever people ask where you are, your name seem so foreign. I struggle hard to remember when was the time you were really really together with us actually happy..

Comes from the heart ;)

2009-09-28T22:48:00.000+08:00

Had this for lunch todayy ;) Awesome.! I miss the maggy too though! *hint hint* HAHA.

Sigh, I'm sucha pig.

Love you :)

Preparing post..

2009-09-28T19:00:00.002+08:00

EEHEHE. :D Studying~ O's is rather dreadful

Swirl twirls curls

2009-09-27T18:57:00.001+08:00

JUST DO IT :D

Ya, just kidnap them. Perhaps.. I would?

Caylen. Ariel. Aliz. Isaiahhhhhhh~

GAHHH BABY GALOREEEEEEEEEE! :D

No words could sum up how cuteeee they simply are.

Ariel and aliz were so cute todayyy!

Ariel apparently punched alix bcos she thought he was going to fight her. Then Alix cried out: nooooooo! I was only doing thisss * shakes his sister hard* ( no wonder she punched him -.- Ahem.) Then ariel gave that... I'm sorry but i don't know how to say it yet you still deserve that punch look. Awwww, so adorable. Within minutes they go crushing into each others arms. Ariel would feed alix while alix hugs ariel. Awwwwww like just soooooooooooooooooo cute.

Love stun

2009-09-26T19:03:00.000+08:00

Headed to nafaa today to catch rosemary play :) Haha, rather interesting. Who knew she was a stage person :o Thoughts aside, the play was great :) Except for the second rather disturbing-.- Ahem, then stayed for the later group too. GLUKGLUK. WHAHAHA. :)

Hoped baby liked it. I think he did ;x haha.

I HOPE he did.

A rather eventful day perhaps :)

Far beyond the horizon.

2009-09-24T17:47:00.000+08:00

I am slacking in Singapore in the comfort of my own home after a hard day of WORK, pure work and not going out planning things out for tmr with friends:D I used to be like that. ahhh~

SIGHS. Not now, not again. I can't handle it. I've got o'levels. I actually I don't really know what i'm frustrated about.. Just really... Empty. Yeah, empty.

Darn, why now? Hmm..

I shall... Omg, i'm so tired:( is there even food? Daffodil is there food?

Eh, I think I know my problem.

My heart lost its way in Yours.

2009-09-22T23:30:00.000+08:00

I feel so like I 'cheated' myself of feelings for months. So sad.. I don't sound convincing as to how I feel :( well, I feel pretty sad about it :( But its alright, HEE :D

Watching the really retarded taiwan show now! Omg Omg Omg! HAHAHA I love it. Shucks.. Speaking about love, my love for mark, no no, the book mark is growing. O.O cause Jesus parables sounds so awesome! Haha, I'm finally learning something bout life rather than the end of it, which is way more awesome. I can't wait for Jesus to come down.. Then I'd use all my might... To just touch him. And I'll be healed. My faith will be healed! If only.. If only..

I never knew alot eh I realise :( I never knew jie jie rosemary did stage play in nafa. I never knew you felt that way in 9months. I never knew today will be the day I gave lame a whole new meaning. I never knew starting to read the bible from mark is not a sin (loves to read from the start of book). I never knew teri was getting married (Haha don't kill me!). I never knew I would feel so much pressure in my life despite the fact.. Nvm. I never knew o'levels is just a FEW days away. I never knew my deathbed will be on 26 oct. I never knew I could escape death by putting my faith in God (wait, I knew that). I never knew on the day I receive my results.. I'd be astonished, amazed, gasping for air.. ANY gas, anywhere! As I stare at my marks in such awe that cannot be described by any language or words summed. OHHHHHH! Low and behold! 9As! How did I do it?!

Not by my strength but Yours! Amen! :)

The moments of my life.

2009-09-22T22:35:00.003+08:00

Today I found out I'm not really convincing as how I feel about certain things. Hmm.. I'm sorry. 9months eh, I feel cheated of my own feelings.. :(

Ahem, now watching the really retarded taiwan show. Omg! The retarded things people do to keep the ones they love close to them. WHAHAHAHA. Silly silly..

Sitting infront of me is a rather good looking mooncake.. *mouth water* I'm resisting.. Not really. Baby's noodles today were.. Mama-mia! Haha:) It seems the only thing I'm good at is really just talking, crapping, anything to do with the mouth. That's why... I want my newscaster job. By faith... I can't think of anything. Maybe psychology? Give the person no time to talk at all, until he has no choice but to agree to everything I say. MuaHaha.

Hmm.. Slowly reading the book of mark, I think Jesus is so cool! :x Haha ohwell:)

Let me hear a whoop whoop!

2009-09-21T23:29:00.000+08:00

I went to my dream cafe today B-) 3monkey! With net members and baby:)

Well, di called me in the morning today to asks me how I was:) so sweettt, HAHAHA. And I studied with Nadine for awhile. Shortly after, I met baby after his really long day:) Then headed to 3monkey! As suspected my brother is working there. whahahaha with friend dominic, why, I always see him around with my bro. So yes, the food there.. I haven't really tried. But the smoothies look so bloody worth it! XD Ohwell, now home wearing baby's jacket B-) sleeping soon though.

'but you see.. If I'm not like that.. I'm might as well not be called cheyenne'

Cramps kills.

2009-09-20T11:52:00.000+08:00

That is one thing I HATE being a girl. -.- The pain was bloody excruciating.. I couldn't even stand, it got worst when I tried to do anything then just shouting in pain. Even in my parents bedroom toilet they cannot hear me lo! God knows how long I was inside that God forsaken place with that God forsaken pain.

When they said doctor, I was like finally! Guess it was just prayer so God was the doctor. Well it came through in the morning at least. Bloody hell, I prayed so hard lo.

So yes, I didn't go to church today:( The pain comes and goes randomly.. I swear this pain really can kill. It just need to be a notch higher.

You neeeda breathee

2009-09-19T15:01:00.004+08:00

He got the chance while he had my phone and took a photo of himself! Tsk tsk baby, haha.

Yes, week has been kinda okay, I really really neeed a break through in my studies. I feeeeeel almost hopeless but not. HEH. Faith man. I heard someone saying that if you didn't do really well for o's you should go to NAFA. Well.. only his intention of going there is because the girls there are really hot... Now I'm beginning to wonder, wait... there's no need to wonder. I just think it is visible now. The path my life leads. No, I'm not going to nafa but someone else is. People change in their school don't they?

Talking about change, I'd this really creepy dream. Not really. Not creepy, just scary. When people change and you don't see it coming. Sheesh, is like you couldn't control your own head.

SO yeah, O's... I hate O's. I hate PSLE. I hate major exams. Darn. I'm having faith faith for a breakthrough. Especially within a month, I believe God will come throughh!!~ AMEN! :D

Yesterday's net rally was awesome mannn! :D haha, Carisser's PJ were so cute. Well at least how she looked in it HAHAHA. Clement's condo is freakin nice cann. The high rise buildings with water folwing everywhere. OMG, I wanna stay there! The gym is like okay lah, I guess the only thing that really impresses me in the buildings, the 5 swimming pools (so says clement) and the scenery. Awesome. What's more awesome?? FOOOOOD. I swear I'm a pig, I gotta stop this hannah, you gottta stop me, I can't do this anymore. Well, at least this is what me and carisser have in common. While everybody's attention is at shanna we might as well chiong at the food now.. HEHEHE. Ahem, Andrea makes the best dessert lah, I'm so glad to have her as a net group leader :D
Speaking of net group leader. Elizabeth stepped down today, not stepped down, more like.. moved up :D Haha, to the adult world. I don't want to be like that, all of a sudden I want to run away to neverland (or is it what it is called?) anyway, where's peter pan? Or if only joel had wings and he could fly. Hahaha. Drink red bull? LOL.

Yes, and I finally am on talking terms to ashleyyy! :) Yay, mission one down. Compassion man, I guess I really need that. :D Hehe, I hope to start lessons soon though.
Chris's pillow is soo comfortable :P heh, overall it was really good. Especially, the messages.. which i always can't seem to remember them after awhile..... But I remembered this one :D I think. Hehheh, I needa read my bible.

Ohwell, talking again about bibles. I really love Jesus's parables. They're soooo cool. LOL. DUH, He's the creator of everything and anything :) Hee.

Now getting ready for like church. Amazing huh? I finally blogged. HAH.

What normal holidays should be

2009-09-11T22:18:00.002+08:00

I'm waiting for you, that's all I can do right now. Is it me? Or is it just you? I remembered what kahjing which always put me in a spot. :( I can't help it, sometimes.. You just really got to let it go. And wait until it is ready. Or worse, it never will. Oh gosh, i've a bad feeling down my guts.

Morning was great:) not much of it anyways, spend my time slowly bathing and choosing clothes after which I head down to meet handsome :p Haha.

Studied awhile at ljs :) then ate the breakfast baby made. Uber nice! :D:D sadly, I can't cook for nuts though :( headed up stairs to put utensils and studied again now at the house whilst me bro play his stupid game. Looks stupid to me.

Played a few games after studying and headed down the the 'chinese place behind vivo' which turned out to be the hawpar villa :o damn its bloody scary! Thank God for baby :D

Then headed to meet sarah. Damn funny.
Me: hey baby, help me spot for sarah
Baby: spot for sports bra?
Andd, that's house her nickname came about. Isn't really funny now but... Ohwell :)

Headed home then out of the house for dinner at this ship. I nearly died of dizziness as everybody was. It was quite bad. But the food there was.. Not bad la! Better than nice:) Haha. Went there when we were kiddos! Ahh reliving the days:):)
I'm waiting for you still

'Smite me!

2009-09-10T20:36:00.003+08:00

Went out with bro today, not a coincidence really.. REALLY. Ahem. Well, got flow got flow :) pretty starbucks at tanglin :) Studied amaths, he is better at what I suck and i'm better at what he sucks. MUAHAHA:) Then walked all the way from tanglin to borders after our mac meal B-)
And it's been a real pain trying to get the papers from s-.- she expects me to go to where she is all the time, not that I expect her to come to me but. Ughh sigh. Nvm. Not really bothered by it.
After which, I headed home and read my story book. B-) so nice! Ahem, while waiting for.. for.. Joel. Andd now I don't feel like meeting him anymore. I admit, I don't have much patience to wait for hours. It KILLS me. BORES me to the core. Next thing you know i'm pissed. So yeah...

I hate the holidays. Alot. The bloody agony of waiting.. Well, 'tis not worse then the previous hols.
Di, you're right.. Haha.

2009-09-09T11:34:00.003+08:00

I wouldn't say I'm very loud spoken or soft spoken.
It is not my fault to be like that right? That I'm born like that.. Or made like that.
I painted greeeen. Lime greeeen! :) Haha, I'm on my way to switch colours hopefully. Sissy bought the wrong colour drats=.=
DARN i nearly passed my amaths by thisssssss much! Mr wong laugh at me lo.... -.- UGHH.

2009-09-06T21:11:00.001+08:00

Let me see them through Your eyes..

I wanna know.

I'm Home :)

2009-09-05T23:23:00.001+08:00

And after all these time.. I miss my grandma terribly. :(

OKay, morning I studied with baby :) Thank you. Haha, but what was really bad was I guess the dream part. Seriously hideous dreams lately. I was soooo angry, yet it feels so good at the same time to run and just let the anger go. It was completely weird lah, just very hurt. But not as bad as.. yours?

So yeah, I've came to a conclusion. Maybe... it's happening to you this time. Not me. But honestly.. whatever you described me to be was rather very hard to imagine. Cause that's never gonna happen. HAHA. Accept the darn fact!

So yeah, went to date my aunt :DDDD WHEEEEEEEEEEEE~
Went to eat at this stinking chinese resaurant at paragon. I'm phat. Shit, nevermind.. I don't think i'd be eating for awhile.. the MSG is killing me. Anyway, during the conversation I think I could cry. I never realy wanted this to happen, especailly to someone so old.. I can't even face her :( But I'm afrai if.. I.. don't say sorry now.. ( TOUCH WOOD, BLOOOOODY TOUCH WOOD. REJECT IT IN THE NAME OF JESUS.. ) That I never will :/ So sad. LOL. just realise.. I touch my nose and divert my eyes to different places to stop the tears from following. HAH.
Yes anyway, had a gala time :)

Then headed for dinner with the rest of the family :) It's nice to feel like I'm..... I'm... 6 years old again. Not literally. BUT YEAH. Get the whole point. SO yeah.. found out alot of stuff I should have known.
And gosh my cousin is cute. HAHAHAHAHA. And I still wonder whyyy we're not close to the other part of the family who is so stinking rich-.- Uncompletely unacceptable. Not that I care. Having my aunts is good enough for me though :) Maybe more than enough :D

And I think I made the right choice not buying that partly witchcraft content book and bought a romance book instead. I can't have anymore nightmares :O Yeah :)
Anyway, miss you baby, love you :)

Tralalala

2009-09-04T17:50:00.003+08:00

GAHHHH, today's test paper was alright I guess.... :)
Just finished regional outing watching Time traveller's wifeee. And I'm at the lan shop with a bunch of gays :) Yipeee.
After net we spend the night watching really dumb and funny videos. HAHAH LMSO!

Pissed

2009-09-03T17:49:00.002+08:00

Today for chinese compo, disappointed thinking I would be sitting for chinese b, I wrote my plan to escape from that paper in totally broken chinese-.- It was a little different than I thought though, but I succeeded :D

Oh do you see a C :D

2009-09-01T18:31:00.000+08:00

I don't really have the energy now..

Unexpected

2009-08-31T21:25:00.003+08:00

Okay, today.. teacher's day was SCREWED to the MAX. Shouldn't explain much-.-
Got pissed here and there. No idea why.. PMS day. Shall celebrate it next week with Jo and Dine. Hah, rather retarded.
Today she keep on staring lo. I seriously don't know what is her problem-.- Nvm....

Watched movie with Jo and Baby. The proposal :D Hahahha, damn funny.
Then headed home. :(

Currently there's this supposedly 14 year old girl talking to me. SHE IS EFFIN WEIRD. She is asking me if I have a stead. Why would YOU LIKE TO KNOW? I'm guessin it is a perverted old man behind the screens. EEEEEEEEEEEEEEEKKKK. -.-

Boy, what a day.
13 months :O Haha, love you :)

Living by Faith

2009-08-29T23:34:00.002+08:00

On this day of your life, Cheyenne, we believe God wants you to know...
... that you are only as free as you imagine yourself to be.

There is nothing ''out there'' that's holding you down, - you are limiting yourself only with your own imagination. And your greatest limits are not even the ''cannot'' and the ''should not'', but the places where your imagination hasn't yet gone at all. There has never been a better time for you to open your eyes, let the imagination soar and see what more is possible.

Alright! Got woken up in the early morning due to rehearsal at clarke quay. Reluctant at first due to lack of sleep :( But went regardless with carisser. Not bad, I learned quite a few. I just can't wait to play for like service eh. LOL. Well not really, like.. ahh never mind, as long as God understands :)

So we headed to borders after that for like hours to read mag and this awesomeeee book. Prophecy of sisters. It is about this two twin sisters that are in a prophecy that has led many sisters against each other because one is good and the other is bad. It is freakin cool. But it has witchcraft inside. Gives me the creeps. But weird enough.. the only books i picked in borders were allllllllll about witchcraft. -.- NOOOOOOOOOOOOO.

Anyway, headed to edge. :D Didn't meet baby in the end so yeah. Headed home straight today ^^ Pimple outbreak -.- Curses... Then played the secret piece. I think.. My hand.. can go die already.. It is soooo painful T.T HAHA. But it's fine :P

I feel rather sad at whyyyyyyy in the world do you have to care so much. Cause..
A. That would never happen. And you know it! Me running off is just not me. And..
B. Besides, I would never make you go something so painful, not for a day. Cause a month and a half is not as bad as hell but close-.- so shuddup and get over it silly!

My maid and turban headed friend :D

My own brand of Kinder Joy :)

2009-08-29T00:47:00.001+08:00

Heyyy silly! This post is forr youuuu :) As you head home and rest so that you can restore your enegry tomorrowww :P I'll assure you I'll stay at home to study yeah? :) Miss you silly:)

Running away, embracing the day.

2009-08-26T21:33:00.002+08:00

Screw it.
I did it again.

No doubt today was rather fine with baby. But not with the family. damn it really? I think i'm cursed. I'm cursed to bring everything and I mean everything down with me.
Stupid boy, I did NOT start it -.-
But whatever the situation, everything has gone wrong. Instead of just being me and that.. Idiot. It led to the rest eventually. Yawn~ how nice :\ Thanks bitch. You ruined this for everybody. You need not through that food you were eating on me.

Now everybody is going crazy. And I regret even laying a finger on you -.- (you didn't need to hit back though, ass.)

Now..... Lets see.. I'm not going to be given money (great, its always the money threat-.-) and my grandma is emotionally hurt in the process.
Actually, all I really care is about grandma and mom -.- I didn't know this situation would actually make me realise alot..

Oh God. What am I to do? I wish I could take it all away..

Prelims hell-lims.

2009-08-24T22:41:00.000+08:00

Oh well, I would say... Screw science practical really -.- screw to the outer most core! Ugh...
nevermind.

Ended stinking early today :) just how I like it! Besides, baby didn't need to wait for hours either. Soon we took a bus down to boon lay to study and catch a early movie to release stress :D Gi.joe is really really good eh :x shucks, and we all thought it was lame. Goodness. So many movies out now! But only after prelims.. Cheh-meh~

After which headed home to rest for awhile. And well.. Prayed today, like finally B-) Haha. Gahh.

Social studies! Hereee I comeee! Stupid venice-.- seriously. What do we benefit from learning history eh? Geez.

Soundless voice, silence screamed.

2009-08-22T23:05:00.000+08:00

I don't know what happened..

When all is lost, look to God. The creator and finisher of our faith.

God spoke today. He really did. (Well at least to me)
While I was lying down, looking at the sky, I said a little prayer: show me a star in this empty sky to show me that You are here and all will be well.

I waited, constantly looking at the sky enjoying the breeze and loud piercing silent that kept our hearts distant. I don't even know how it started. Many times I tried to turn it around but to no avail.. Maybe i'm trying to hard. Maybe.. I shouldn't try at all and let nature take its course. Or maybe it is just me?..

Then all of a sudden in the midst of thinking.. Two stars appeared and them disappeared after awhile.. :) For that moment I felt God telling me to relax and that He is here, with me.

Shortly after the two stars disappeared another brighter star shone in the middle of the thick clouds down at me and in a minute it was gone.

Needless to say, I spoke less than what average women and probably men spoke in a day today.

Thanks perry bro for eh.. Buying me choc, studying with me andd choosing my clothes today. Although it was TOO much over the top. Lol.
And thank you baby for the dinner :D

'Searching high and low, i'm looking for a meaning'

:D

2009-08-22T10:37:00.001+08:00

Have got my darling phone together with baby B-)
Currently craving for urban pantry :\
Missing baby gay like tons!

Avalanche

2009-08-22T00:55:00.004+08:00

You got me standin’ at the bottom of this mountain that we’ve made
And the ground is shakin’ from all of our mistakes
But there’s no one, but then
The ice is in our way
It’s a matter of time
We can rewind

If only you knew
What my heart must do for you
I’m tryna break through
Don’t you think it’s worth the chance?
Let’s leave the past
Is that too much to ask?
And where do we stand?
Can we pull through this avalanche?

Had a nice good talk before I head home. I didn't get pissed! :o Amazing, even though there was this info which I knew then you said something different, it didn't bother.
I'm impressed. LOL. -.-
Stupidity.. Remembering the past is so energy draining. Especially that past.

Prelims are next week! Well, I guess that's how the talk came about. HAH. I guess I'll be going home early alone and then i'll studyy... hmm :)

I'm currently taking 8 subjects :D
I know what you're thinking, how can cheyenne be so smart right? Well, I'm about to prove you wrong :D
English, math, science (chemistry & physics), Humanities (literature & social studies), Add maths, principles of account, chinese o'level (retake) anddddddddddddd........ CHINESE B :D
HAHAHAHAHA, 8 subjects aounds very very intelligent huh :D

On this day of your life, Cheyenne, we believe God wants you to know...
... that every little part of you is magical.

Yes, even the parts that hurt, even the ones that are feeling disease right now. It's alright to love what is in pain. More than alright, that's exactly where your love is needed the most. So why not touch that part that hurts and smile at it, at yourself through it, and whisper: ''I love you.''

Guess I'll miss my chinese class alot. :/ I already do.. Sigh, today the only class that was fun was chinese. Nothing else. LOL. Oh welllll....
Net was great :) I love the topic on passion. :D

"If you've acheived great and have not loved, you've gained nothingggg"

Pronto pronto!

2009-08-19T22:15:00.003+08:00

Alrightt.. school has been pretty cool.
I got a bloody E8 for my chinese. Oh well, no biggie, a stepping stone tto the future.
Spill a small amount of milk and going on the the big future! AMEN! HAHAHA. Ahem..

Yes, DID YOU KNOW.. O.O How aids came about was because this man went to have sex with a monkkey. O.O How freakin' weird is thattt! Shit mannn... That guy is whacked. Alot of crazyy shit todayy. :)

About to finish the book Jolyn lent me. I relate to it so much as... I think I have cancer! D': I'm not faking, really, a tiny part of me. but I didn't got for chemo.. Oh well NVM -.- Nice book, I didn't cry though. :D HAH.

Love the picture, done by andrea lee & publised by joel neo.

Taking it all in.

2009-08-17T22:04:00.001+08:00

Why can't I thank God for what happened?

On this day of your life, Cheyenne, we believe God wants you to know...
... that it's OK.

Just rest for a moment. It's OK. Yes, things are crazy, yes, the world is going nuts. Yet, deep underneath the stormy waves, there, in the core of your being, there is pure silence, pure love. And ... it's ... just ... OK.

I never got over the subject.
Life have been pretty stagnent, everything, everywhere. And my thoughts are going back to the usual place to used to be.

I get a little off when anything related or something that could be related to it is brought up. My insides would start to curl, my mind would start to race. Race back..
And it is no point shutting it back, because no matter how much I shut the door, (hell) I gotta accept, it always comes back out with a bang.

This definitely made me who I am. What I am now, how paranoid I could be sometimes..
I would freakin' roll my eyes and soon I feel numb all over follwed by a burning desire deep inside to kill. Kill you. It really didn't matter whatever that has happened before. I was more of an audience to a slow motion film then an actress in it. Hah.. Funny how it sounds (shrugs). I needed to make you pay. Bawl your freakin eyes out till they are sore from crying. Ditch you for a month and forget every important thing you said, just avoid you.
I ponndered on these thoughts much, really. But I don't really have the guts or the heart realy to do it. So I play it all in my mind in the end. Again and again, everytime the subject is brought up.

But Jo shot me this sentence that made me think a whole new lot.
"Why can't you just thank God for what happened, rather then grumble all the time"
It really made me think. Rethink the whole situation. Why can't I? Why can't I?? People make mistakes time and again.. No one is perfect. But then again.. It wasn't me. I showered in self pity (i freakin' admit) I always thought why am I the one who is always hurting? Godd... The world only revolved around me then. Not really, I just felt it wasn't fair.. I was experiencing more hurt then the other. I always ended up with the solution: A taste of your own medicine.

I started to calm down for once... Clear my head a little. And after that.. It didn't really matter.
And I felt better. Like the remainding hot air all released..

Love you.

Find me in you.

2009-08-16T20:00:00.005+08:00

I can't help laughing at andre's face.. HAHAHA

On this day of your life, Cheyenne, we believe God wants you to know...
... that to find out who you are becoming find stories that move your heart.

Just like a seed has an image of the tree in it, so does your heart have an image of who you are becoming. Look for stories in movies and books that resonate in your heart, and you will find glimpses of your possible futures. What is your favorite story?

Samuel was, I think, really off in a way. He started licking the envelope and after which he took out his shoes and smelled them-.- OH GOD.

I kinda hate today, firstly.. cried in a really long time. And its caused by my parents! Grrr, was darn pissed. Like realllllyyyyyyy pisseeddddd. Then classes today. I have no idea what happened to the second teacher. Anyway head back earlier with Joel Yap.

Met ashley yesterday, supposedly discipling here. And I realised.. who she looks like.. :D
OKay, she looks like amutha, a little. I just realised TODAY. I think this is a sign........ REALLY.
I don't know, I don't regret switching people though :)

Heeeeeeeee :)
Check out these realllllyyyyyy stupid pictures blue joel neo - blue fish. :D

It is all in the words..

2009-08-15T00:06:00.000+08:00

He didn't want to talk to me for the first five minutes because I was inhumanely tall :( Stupid heels. Sighhhhhhhhhh....

Edge was fun :D
Haaha, sending retarded pictures via bluetooth was Double thumbs up. Hahaha.
Yeah, nearly beat joel neo to death today. Ahem, I apologise to a certain extend. Thus, I'm sorry. -.-
Then headed for like dinnner at tiong for fellowship, goodness the convo is like super funny and retarded lah, whoever wasn'nt there totally missed out. Thank God I didn't go home :P haha, after which we headed for like the arcade? Stayed for a bit.

Simply the craziest day, had a get church fellowship! Laughed like mad, i hopee the people at tiong won't mind. HAHAHAHAh. After all, we are happy church peopleeeeee :D kidding :P

Then had a long ride home. Great day :)

Food unite! :D

2009-08-14T16:07:00.003+08:00

On this day of your life, Cheyenne, we believe God wants you to know...
... that doubt is the greatest gift, - it's the space between two certainties.

Any change on its way from one place of stability to the next one, passes through a period of doubt. Your old perspective has to disintegrate, and doubt comes in for a visit - even if only for a moment, before the new perspective takes root. Doubt is your greatest gift, because from doubt you can go anywhere.

A day with alot of moodswings in the morning, started off real bad :(
Then I think I was pretty caught up in that, and thus... Ohwell, lets see what my english marks turn out. :/ Hmm.

He looked like he was crying :/ Arghh, quite bad. Then after school he was better I guess cause he was with ryan. LOL. awww.. ALOT OF MOODSWINGS can already lah.
Sigh.. went to wisma. I think It is either my blue phone orr it is just my bad day.. where i get alot of weird smses from those weirdo people. SERIOUSLY.
One calls me hon, another acts all dumb.

You don't have to blantanly LIE. LIKE ITS RIGHT ON YOUR FACE : I'M AN EFFIN LIAR.. but you still wanna try your luck. heh.
Unknown: you at wisma?
Me: yeah? why, you here too?
Unknown: oh sorry, I send to the wrong cheyenne, ou lyingalaysia right now.
Me: -.- are you lying?
Unknown: no
hours later..
Unknown: hey! I'll be in singapore until aug, so sian have to help my junior LAST monday thrusday (whatevr else not day) for their o levels
Me: I though you in malaysia (-.-)
Unknown:Oh, i mixed up the two phones and i wanted to sms my girlfriend in wisma to get me something.
Me: Your girlfriend name cheyenne meh (-.-)
Unknown: yeah.. hard to believe my girlfriend had the same name as your huh?
Me: I thought she in malaysia?
Unknown: ya, I wanted to ask her to get something from me in malaysia.
Me: Malaysia got wisma?@ EH! I also want to check out eh, joels uncle satys there too maybe after o's i can go over ^^ where is it at?
Unknown: somewhere near where i live
me: where do you live
Unknown: I think i should sleep now.. gd night?
me: lol..
Unknown: very tried le..
unknown: gd night.
*some info removed*

Seriously, idiotic.
Anyway, hheaded to wisma to repair my phone. :'( ( I just realised my phone has some stuff i forgot to dig out :( ) Then bought lots of bread and halohalo. :D Then checked out central :D AWESOME HIGH shopping centre. Love the super long escalator rides :)

Headed home for net.

Then down again for dinner with baby, MET MY FATHER. O.M.G.
nevermind he ended up sitting with us again. Then he asked what was the rubberband on my wrist mean? what is it trying to prove? omg, not again... zzz. Tie hair? duh? Sigh anyway :) Baby's meal was awesome!!

The day ended nicely :D Wheeee. HEH. mocking, not really.
Found out that food really makes everyone happy. Or is it just us? Opps. HAHA.
But true enough, FOOD UNITES! 8) That was how we knew each other anyway. My church bbq. Hahahahha. Love you :)

Take me back to the past on the rollercoaster ride.

2009-08-13T21:01:00.004+08:00

My phone died on me in chemistry class, while i was in the chemistry lab at 1:45pm today.
My darfts which i was going to blog and reply my mail today was in that phone! And it died.
So penpal, if you see this.. I'm so sorry. My facebook is lagging as well.. SIGH! I can't even see the mail lah. Gosh.
And ya.. and to retype my blog post again -.--
My email...? I'm not even trying! facebook doesn't even want to cooperate! And i'm supposed to be studying...
Thank God I didnt right my heart felt stupid poems inside-.- (No its not freakin cheesy. Its more emo)

Baby was sweet enough to lend me his phone:) Thank you.
Ended off in a rather dead and slow and unexpected way... ._.
Maybe it was what I said.?
Maybe I made more mistakes than you. But whenever I recall back, especially back then, I don't feel sorry... and my body just goes through a series of adrenaline rushes, bad adrenaline rushes.

On this day of your life, Cheyenne, we believe God wants you to know...
... that decision is only wishful thinking until you take that first irreversible step.

You can tell yourself that you have already decided, that nothing now can stop you, but if that step backwards is so much safer than step forwards, what will hold you true to your path when the going gets tough? Sometimes, the right thing to do is to take that first irreversible step, the one after which you cannot go back. And now, for you, is one of those times.

Hee hee heee..

2009-08-12T21:14:00.002+08:00

Hey, again again. Happy birthday wailoong.

Well, we gave him his AWESOME birthday present which he is bound not to use it, just admire... admire..
Anyway :) Supposedly andre wanted to plan another movie outing today with all wailoong's ex girls and flings. I thought it was pretty cool. But that'll be alot! Haha.

So yeah.. walked up to school with wailoong, andre, ashraf and meiee.

Pretty fine day :D
Met baby after school and headed around commonwealth. So cool!!!! haha place 103 :P

Geek in the Pink

2009-08-11T23:11:00.003+08:00

Yes, did I mention the number of weird people i constantly meet time and again. I just keep seeing them. It's just not right.

1. Was weird rather plump indian or malay guy

2. Scrony chinese guy from queenstown.

3. Perverted touchy china man.

So yes, saw number 2 today and met number 3. It was bloody awkward.

So I was walking down to stairs to mr. bean when this china dude banged half of his body on me -.- The pathway had more than enough space to walk trust me! And he is not that fat either!

After doing so, he profusely said sorry which what seems like forever. And I tried to ensure him with my " really! It's (bloody) okay! " smile. But he. Just. Would. Not. Stop.

Even after telling him countless times, he felt as if he needed to "show" his apology as his words were not enough. And he "patted" me from shoulder to shoulder. LIKE. SCREW?

Bought baby's breakfast then headed up the escalator. Was contemplating about that super weird incident. Like why the hell did he need to "pat" me from shoulder to shoulder!

So... stupidly.. I turned my head to check if he was behind me.

He was not.

THANK GOD :D

He was. RIGHT. BESIDE. ME. INSTEAD -.-

Dear Lord, take me now.

Anyway.. As usual. He starts saying sorry sorry (get over it already)

Ran to get the newspaper and waited for baby to come and RESCUE ME.

AFTER MINUTES He comes STRAIGHT TOWARDS ME.

This time starting up a convo which ended B.E.A.Utifully. Screw, not.

Perverted touchy china man: I'm sorry about just now.

Innnocent girl waiting for her rescue: It's okay :)

Perverted touchy china man: Anyway, nice to meet you *extends his hand out for a shake*

Innnocent girl waiting for her rescue *shakes the hand* (O.O wth)

Perverted touchy china man: You're in outram secondary right?

Innnocent girl waiting for her rescue: ya.

Perverted touchy china man: Secondary?

Innnocent girl waiting for her rescue: ya

Perverted touchy china man: Secondary?

Innnocent girl waiting for her rescue: 4

Perverted touchy china man: oh okay, all the best.
After which, he had the bloody audacity to walk one big around AROUND me. Like he was checking me out and said:

Oh, by the way, your skirt is quite short. Xiao xin yi dian (be careful)

What. The. Holy. Moly. Jesus. Mother. Shizzles.

PERVERT. O.O

Like how the hell he know eh. It is not short compared to the rest lo -.-

UGHH Felt so violated T.T

Thank God Joel was in a distance when he walked away. Even when he stoood from afar he stared. And Joel stared back. I'm so afraid. EEEEEEEEk.

My hairstylist.

2009-08-10T22:54:00.001+08:00

I feel very united with my country. I just need you by my side, then it'll be complete.

2009-08-09T20:03:00.006+08:00

The NDP is not bad la:)
So sad I can't spend it with baby:(
Somebody help me. My family is trying to make me obese and explode. I guess this is goodbye.

And that's it I'm freakin not eating for the rest of my life-.- SERIOUSLY

So patriotic, together.. we are the Singapore flag :D (anti-clockwise 90)

OKAYYY! Here comes for DARYLLLL! :D HAHAHAHAHAHAHA

Sighs I miss my hair.. Ohwell. Nice try:P

Suprise suprise!

2009-08-08T20:05:00.002+08:00

Wailoong's birthday celebration.. Heeheeheee. :p

Morning was pretty tired. Thanks jolyn for scarying the shit out of me in the morning. I'm so closing my eons whenever I'm at home alone. Jolyn came over passed me her esprit white pants and had breakfast :D then headed to Vivo to buy wailoong's present. OMG it was so embarrassing. See what see la -.- never see people buy before is it? Idiots.

Yes, anyway we decided on two.
We were very very considerate for both parties. HAHAHA. Omg, helping someone plan is actually kinda fun. :) Haha, my mind is still pure unlike breadbread lol.

So... we played pool (very very frustrated when I did - no, not because I didn't want to) then headed to botak jones to eat :) Woots:) i like the mexican chilli:D

Then walked the henderson wave :o the two idiots, andre and omar, reached it less than 20 minutes. Because I started brisk walking and they wanted to compete -.-

So whilst they did that.. Wailoong told his really really had story. :( Haha, it was kind of nice to know that we mean much to him la:)
Then half way wailoong needed the toilet. If kept looking back cause he was afraid we would run away! HAHAHA. Which andre and omar did. Damn funny andre had to hop twice like a bunny, shout 'let's go!' then runs off.
CUTE SIA.

Settled down. Jolyn just had to flick the stupid worm on ME :o

Nvm. We found another place to sit:) So we played taidee, and BRIDGE :D
Then we presented the 'lovely' gift to loong loong.
I know you loved it:)

I made baby wait for quite awhile! I'm so sorry :( anyway, I love you! :)

Waiting for the rest of the pics ... :/

Up up up and awayyy~

2009-08-07T12:15:00.004+08:00

I hate stupid taxi drivers who can't wait for people to cross the road -.-

Loved UP :D It's so bloody cute :)

Cheyenne got a message that on this day, God wants her to know...
... that what you are most afraid of is where your greatest rewards are.

If all you had to do was wish for something and you would have it, life would be pretty boring, wouldn't it? God placed barriers between us and what we want, so we can enjoy interesting and satisfying lives. God hid our biggest rewards behind the highest barriers - our deepest fears. God wants us to face our fears, and hold ground in their presence, and let them go, and that's how we get out biggest rewards. What are you most afraid of? Say it, just start by saying it.

Burnin up, for you baby.

2009-08-05T23:11:00.000+08:00

A rather short and sweet day of school :) lovely, if only everyday could be like that. HAHA. HATE YOUTH OLYMPICS -.- push o level forward. Gee.

Anyway, had a rather nice, short lovely day with my horsey and thambi :D HAHA.
Recess with usual was fun:) Seems exceptionally cheerful today, especially jolyn who doesn't need to get stitches :) and Joel.. God knows eh. Haha :)

After which, chatted in maths class alot. Then after school they waited for me whilst I waited for Joel. I feel bad.. But it wasn't me who initiated the wait for me :x Opps. Thanks anyway. I feel like a little sister around them:\ maybe it's because of charles intimidating height and thambi's rather cool composure! :x
Had fun :) while waiting..
Now at least I've witness to my up coming cancer attack. I'd better make full use of the horse I purchased. Ride me round the world!:D
H: eh i think she is having cancer eh..
Z: don't know her la *walks away*
Down right punch in the gut *smile in pain* Sigh... I just realised these adrenaline rushes I feel is mostly when things are going down hill.. :x

Then.. Some where, some how. Things change in a blink-.- Hate it. I'm not sure whether its the harshness, but I feel more of a little 5 year old more then a 16 year old girl whenever this happens.

Baby was pretty tired. :\ Hmm. Rehearsal, sigh. Then waited for aunty to come home before he left.

I think i'd sleep right now :D I'm dying...

Facebook so lameee, omg!

2009-08-04T22:51:00.003+08:00

Cheyenne got a message that on this day, God wants her to know...
... that it is time to finally forgive yourself.

You've carried the guilt, the shame for long enough. You've kept your wounds open for long enough. The time has to come to let go, to heal. Keep the lessons and let the pain heal. Yes, you know what we are talking about it.

:O I think God is living in facebook. wow.

105 Facts About You

1. EVER BEEN GIVEN AN ENGAGEMENT Ring?
HAH-.- First question already so stupid.

2. LONGEST RELATIONSHIP?
1 year, 5 days and counting..

3. LAST GIFT YOU RECEIVED?
God knows eh... Is food counted? I received countless!

4. EVER DROPPED A CELL PHONE?
Asking the obvious stupidd!

5. WHEN'S THE LAST TIME YOU WORKED OUT?
My mouth? Like a few hours ago. Eating lah!

6. THING(S) YOU SPEND A LOT OF MONEY ON?
Sadly food... :(

7. LAST FOOD YOU ATE?
Macdonalds double cheeseburger

8. FIRST THING YOU NOTICE ABOUT THE OPPOSITE SEX?
their character

9. ONE FAVORITE SONG?
Nothing is impossible - planet shakers

10. WHERE DO YOU LIVE?
why you wanna know-.-

11. HIGH SCHOOL YOU ATTENDED:
Declaration high.

12. CELL PHONE SERVICE PROVIDER:
Sing sing sing.. tel! :D

13. FAVORITE MALL STORE:
God knows eh..

14. LONGEST JOB YOU HAD:
HMM. Being a servant. my WHOLE life :)

15. DO YOU OWN A PAIR OF DICE?
Who the hell needs that?

16. DO YOU PRANK CALL PEOPLE?:
OH :D YES! not really into it now..

17. LAST WEDDING YOU ATTENDED:
Kimberly's wedding :) which was eons.

18. FIRST FRIEND YOU'D CALL IF YOU WON THE LOTTERY:
honestly..? no one. Not that they care. Not because I want the money to myself-.- LAME.

19. LAST TIME YOU SAW YOUR BEST FRIEND:
few hours ago!:)

20. FAVORITE FAST FOOD RESTAURANT:
BK

21. BIGGEST LIE YOU HAVE EVER HEARD:
Since when did I ever blame you?

23. WHERE'S YOUR FAVORITE PLACE TO EAT WITH FRIENDS?
Hmmmm :D anywhere near city hall :)

24. CAN YOU COOK?
unfortunately..

25. WHAT CAR DO YOU DRIVE?:
What are you atlking about.. -.- I get chauffeured around lah dumb.

26. BEST KISSER
God knows eh...

27. LAST TIME YOU CRIED?:
LAST? whole of june and half of may -.-

28. MOST DISLIKED FOODS:
:/ HMMMM....

29. THING YOU LIKE MOST ABOUT YOURSELF:
HAHAHA.

30. THING YOU DISLIKE MOST ABOUT YOURSELF:
I can't control myself enouggh.

32. LONGEST SHIFT YOU HAVE WORKED AT A JOB?:
...

33. FAVORITE MOVIE?
untimately it'll be ONCE IN A SUMMER :) And many many more.

34. CAN YOU SING?
HAHAHAHA.

35. LAST CONCERT ATTENDED?
HILLSONGSSS :D

36. LAST KISS?
hmm... I'm thinking.. I'm thinking..

37. LAST MOVIE RENTED:
I dont rent. So cheapo.

38.ONE THING YOU NEVER LEAVE THE HOUSE WITHOUT:
My darling phone.

39. FAVORITE vacation spot
A deserted beach with a small wooden house, NOT HAUNTED! Something like that movie.. what's that? Nights in nor- something.

43. LAPTOP OR DESKTOP COMPUTER?:
Laptop, MAC

44. FAVORITE COMEDIAN?:
Wayne :D WOOTS

45. DO YOU SMOKE?
Asking the obvious -.- stooopid.

46. SLEEP WITH OR WITHOUT CLOTHES?
depends. HAH. kidding.

47. WHO SLEEPS WITH YOU EVERY NIGHT?:
My phone, pillows, thoughts and prayers

48. DO LONG DISTANCE RELATIONSHIPS WORK?:
DOUBT MUCH

49. HOW MANY TIMES HAVE YOU BEEN PULLED OVER BY THE POLICE?
LOL.?

50. PANCAKES OR FRENCH TOAST?
Depends

51. DO YOU LIKE COFFEE?
Caramel frappe or white mocha please,

52 HOW DO YOU LIKE YOUR EGGS?
scrambled:)

53. DO YOU BELIEVE IN ASTROLOGY?:
what's thatttttttt :$

54. LAST PERSON YOU TALKED TO ON THE PHONE?:
Joel G

55. LAST PERSON ON YOUR MISSED CALL LIST?:
Joel G

56. WHAT WAS THE LAST TEXT MESSAGE YOU RECIEVED?:
"hello :D" mark

58. NUMBER OF PILLOWS?:
4 :D

59. WHAT ARE YOU WEARING RIGHT NOW?:
clothes. DUH

60. PICK A LYRIC, ANY LYRIC:
no weeping, no hurt or pain.
no suffering, You hold me now, You hold me now.

61. WHAT KIND OF JELLY DO YOU LIKE ON YOUR PB & J?:
blueberry jellY!:P

62. CAN YOU PLAY POOL?:
Clement thought me 2 years back :D

63. CAN YOU SWIM
No. I'll drown. literally.

64. FAVORITE ICE CREAM?:
island creameryyyy!

65. DO YOU LIKE MAPS?
Sick.

66. TELL ME A RANDOM FACT ABOUT YOURSELF:
I get drunk on my tiredness. Honestly.

69. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE SEASON
Autum.

70. LAST TIME YOU LAUGHED AT SOMETHING:
half an hour ago cas of xaviers stupidity!

71. WHAT TIME DID YOU WAKE UP THIS MORNING ?
6 40

72. BEST THING ABOUT WINTER?:
THE SCARFS!

73. LAST TIME A COP GAVE YOU A TICKET?:
go and die lah.

75. NAME OF YOUR FIRST PET?:
goldiee? HAHAHA

76. DO YOU THINK PIRATES ARE COOL OR OVERRATED?:
ughhhh

77. WHAT ARE YOU DOING THIS WEEKEND??
Celebrating loongs birtday :D and church :D And nlt! :D

78. BIRTHDATE
22 mar

79. WHAT DO YOU WANT TO BE:
newscaster

85. ARE YOU ON A LAPTOP?:
yeah

87. ARE YOU SMILING?:
no...

89. DO YOU MISS SOMEONE RIGHT NOW?
honestly.. no.

90. IF YOU COULD GO ANYWHERE IN THE WORLD WHERE WOULD YOU GO?
Somemwhere wwith clean sand and clear shallow waters, probably in aus :D Shallow water so i wont drown. HAH

92. ARE YOU IN HIGH SCHOOL?
Yeahhhh a really sucky one

93. DO YOU HAVE A CRUSH?:
HAH, ji sui liaooo.

94. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE NAME?
Joelle.
.
95. WHAT COLOR IS YOUR BATHING SUIT?
:O

96. DOES YOUR SCHOOL START IN AUGUST?:
Oh God, someone should sue the creator.

97. DID YOU GO ON VACATION LAST MONTH?:
yeahhhhh. in the middle of my four walls burning hot with satly water covered to the brim. Awesome-.-

98. HAVE YOU EVER BEEN ON A CRUISE?:
Miss being on it :/

99. DO YOU HAVE A SISTER?
:)

100. ARE YOU UPSTAIRS?:
WHATTTT go kill yourself.

101. ARE YOU IN LOVE?:
can say so..

102. HAVE YOU EVER BEEN IN THE HOSPITAL?
NOPE. Healthy wealthy :)

103. DO YOU WISH YOU COULD SEE ANYONE PARTICULAR RIGHT NOW?
Honestly? I want to see Godd. Honeslty.. NOW. NOWWWW.

104. WHAT JEWELRY ARE YOU WEARING?
Shoot yourself.

105. WHAT ARE YOU GOING TO DO AFTER THIS SURVEY?
probably think about some stuff. And do devotions :)

Before I slip through..

2009-08-04T21:23:00.002+08:00

It's sooo hard sometimes.
I can't put a finger on it.
Maybe I try too hard?
Or maybe it's just me. HAH.
Whatever it is, it's so hard to please..

I wouldn't say you're the only one.
Sometimes I wish I could put you back in that place too.
Maybe you'd be happier? God knows, sick.
Or rewind time..
I just want to see how your reaction was when you were there.
I never got the chance to see.
So guess I'll never know now either.
But I do have a strong hunch.. (as I always do)

Ahh, but all love need sacrifices.
If I let in you there again, I guess I wouldn't really mind.
It'll be so selfish to not do so.
After all what am I to you?
The present doesn't really matter if it is not going to be there in the future.

Sometimes I wish I were you, able to take my stand and point my views.
Wishing always to raise my voice in a fight, but never did.
I can never know why,
It just seem so hard to do so.
Even if I wanted to.
Funny much.

So much for thinking I could move on.
The past just comes back banging on my four walls.
Heh, erasing that part of my memory was wishful thinking.
It was just a reason to run away from the pain I tried so hard not to release.
But the truth is no matter how much I force myself to forget.
People, things, subjects, months, situations reminds a person of it.
The most clear memory in your brain is not the sweetest, but the worst.

Maybe.. recalling back is not a bad thing?
Maybe.. it is to see how less painful I can recall the memory?
Maybe.. Maybe.. Maybe..

Human lives my trial and error.
I'm not perfect.
I can't erase it no matter how much I force.
I can't stop the fact I can't get behind your head.
I can't stop the fact.
I can't stop the fact.
I can never stop the facts.

That I am still going through this motion in life.

The little boy with the big bag

2009-08-03T21:34:00.004+08:00

Zan: yaaa, since you know it my case is cleared :) Kidding lah!
Joash: AHAHAHAHA, HOT MAH! :P

Yes, the little boy with that extra 'bag' infront is my brother. I realised, i better love and treasure everything about my little brother.
Cute, chubby, fat yes.. annoying, and just small.
Unlike what he would be next time, I wouldn't be able to cuddle him anymore. :(
Awww.. I really miss what he looked like :x Opps. HAHA.

Just talked to di on the phone :o first time! Haha:) I guess this is how its going to be like :)

School was really really boring. I swear stephen's voice brings rebellion in my actions, irritation in my mood.. And OH GOD when she starts explaining.. Its the entrance of my lalaland!

BUT CHEYENNE WAN endured! Amazingly. Literature is awesode, just the explanations... ZZZ.

Then slept throughout maths. Literally.. I nearly drooled too:x But I didn't! HAH :p To my sleep more comfortable I brought my shirt out. Whooo! Extra comfort-.-

And I guess the only medicine to really keeping me awake is just to say his name.

After which, I didn't sleep :( Though I badly wanted to.

I feel tired too. And fat-.- Not to mention a monster, I'm so sorry baby.. :\

Anyway, had great lunch with usual javscona minus usual people. And I'm very very touched Vinod still has the poem I gave him :) I wonder whether wailoong still has it.. HMM

BEWARE: NADINE KILLS TREES

2009-08-02T20:10:00.006+08:00

OMG, Check this out. It's soooo funny! Never knew xiaxue got that accent though O.O LOL.

Zan: I'm giving you that oh my word such a liar face. HAHA. YOU SAY ONE AH!
Sarah: Opps, really?
Dina: Got it babe :)
Joel: love you too! :D

Yes, anyway.. I'm really sorry to have wasted your time coming all the way down to cck and go back to kallang alone :( I know now why.

Headed home. Then walked all the way to my aunts house which was exactly a stinking mrt stop away. :) Church was alright today, about faith again. God is speaking.. Anyway, headed to clarke quay for lunchy with willy boy and zanny long legs! QUITE SCARY O.O MUMMYYYY...

After which headed to CCK to study. That stupid girl didn't study make me carry my bag for nothing T.T SO MEAN ZAN! Classes started sooner than usual and ended earlier than usual too. Thank God cause babe's phone was dying.
I hope baby is fine :(

Z: u not going dinner??
C: i ate alr
HAHA
you lehhh!
Z: nah
diettt
C: o.o
i'm giving you that
you should totally just killl yourself stare
Z: lols
box u ah
C: HAHA it'll be like throwing a tree twig at me xD
Z:no lors. i'll be tugging your hair, pulling your veins out, sucking your blood
haha
C: :O I'm so scared lo. lol. hahaha you'd be doing that to *girl B* not me :D Im so nice :)
Z: oh wait! ..i'm sorry cheyenne, i harboured evil thoughts against you. sorry God ):
C: HAHAHAHAHA
God forgive her for she doesn't know what she is saying xD
Z: haha
yeahhh.

My two aunties just blessed me! T.T OMG, THANK YOU! & despite that, they didn't scold me for what happened on tuesday :O God is GOOD.
Nibbling on my island creamery ice cream now :D
Summarised my day.

OH AND THE GREATEST NEWS!!!!!!! xD
Di accepted Christ! Wheeeeeeeeee~ Haha, prayer answered. Thank God for twinny! :)

When a day feels like two.

2009-08-01T22:43:00.005+08:00

Woke up 4 hours later to meet baby again. This time Pasir Ris. I am honesty growing fatter. :'( Ohwell, yeah, followed baby.. watched awhile then headed to tiong to meet Joash and Zanny!! Baby and Zan was so nice, they blessed me the whole day today. They blessed me with their blessings. HAHA. SO niceeeeee :P

Edge today was great. Carisser Seaward preached :D Shorty after went to commonwealth park for dinner :) FUN :D Hahaha. Waited for baby... but yeahh. Ohwell.

Miss you! :x

On this day of your life, Cheyenne, we believe God wants you to know...
... that it's time to STOP going through the motions of living, and START living.

Are you willing to do that now? Or are you going to wait until all life energy drains out of you and your loved ones who are trying to support you at this very moment? You were not born to follow rules and regulations. Living starts with dreaming. So dream, dream friend, and let dreams show you the path to your bliss.

(Righht) The hottest of the hottest. HAHAHA.

Under the moonlight.

2009-08-01T01:46:00.002+08:00

The moon was gorgeous orange yellow over the deep purple sky.
Truth or dare was more a moment of truth.
Who ever know a night could be so hot no matter how many several times the wind would pass by..
It is still. Stinking. HOT
Because I was wearing a freakin jacket the whole entire time. :/