Today okay.... SUPER BORING OKAY!
i NEARLY lemme repeat so that it goes in your head.
NEARLY died. URGHH!!!!!
LOTS of things in my mind i cant get it out.
its like NOT leaving and no its not you. [if u ever find my blog] well MAYBE. but its not that kinda way...
MY MIND is something u really don wanna mess with. was really thinking. can NEVER EVER pull this relationship thingy thru. everytime i think of it. i get this YUCKY feeling.. like i do like..., you noe.. this kinda stuff.. IMAGINING ONLY. but definately not the REAL thing. REALLY got me thinking through ALOT. I just realised how much hatred is in me that there's just completely no space for love. And i'm fine with that (: LOVE makes me feel uncomfortable. [as in the relationship kinda thing. Just doesn't work out (: ] heh... At least think God put me this way for a reason.. :D sound DAMN emo i'm sure. BUT.. ITS FINALLY OUT. THANK GOD. :D hahaha. I got SOOO frustrated i sorta even cried.. like to God.. i couldnt take THIS anymore. I just need ANSWERS! i even read the Bible. Revelations. YEAH and to AGRIVATE me even MORE. my cousin... URGHHH.. EFFIN PISSIN ME OFF. nearly made me cry.. so i headed to the bball court to chill.. He's such a pain in the ASS!! and when i came back.. he PISSED me even MORE -.- but his wet cloth which he used to wipe his nose, eye and mouth.. don't ask me why.. but yeah and sneaked his yellow stuff on me. and squeezed his wet towel round me and nearly on my head. URGHH...
TO JARYN: its ALL your fault la! lol.. i can list out.
1 # you leave for your holiday
2# no one to sms la.. i mean like duhh always msg you right? so msg someone else la. cb-.-
3# I REFUSE TO SAY... makes me puke..
4# now my mind is in a mess.. LOL okay not entirely your fault lah.. but still boils down to you. :x sorry didnt mean to be so harsh :x

Then slacked damn much. Had netgroup. LEARNED bout. accepting people into the circle. yeah... sorta.. feel LEFT OUT. i mean like in church LORD! ALL THEY TALK BOUT.
" hey is that from prada?"
" yeah.. :D "

" you noe that school.... "
" how much you get for PSLE.. "
" i wanna take this for sec 3.. "
" i wanna like take .....[ this really really chim word] next time.. i think its help ppl...[ and continue with this really chim sentence ]

like PUHLEASE.. have i mentioned? they're like SUPER SMART PEOPLE! ALL OF THEM!!! urghh.. i feel DAMN dumb around them okay. and its doesnt feel nice AT ALL. like duhhh

EFFIN" PISSED KAY!! HAD ENUFF EUNFF!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
i understood when Eliz explained how she felt back then.
But back then.. people were nicer.
NOW...... PUHLEASE.... PUHLEASE.
u gotta be kidding right? okay i admit maybe i'm just over reacting but i MAYBE RIGHT! [bout some ppl]
Been praying bout a FRIEND who REALLY listens too. GUY or GIRL i don care! urghh... just waiting... like hell impatiently! [ idiot. show yourself-.-]
Well like a thousand to one times. my church... i mean my region.. the youths?
i'm the ONLY GIRL who is in sec2.
And... they GUYS.. -.- the one in CW. sad to say losers [i'm sorry used to the word.]
I noe i'm ONE. I'm SOOO ONE.
I totally can't connect with them. Its hard.
They just seem to have a maturity level of a P1 kid..-.-
And... the GIRLS? i mean i can't tell them my problems.
they'll think i'm some EMO kid who needs to go for counselling.... URGHH!
and think i'm weird.. i got that from... forget it.
sigh* SHUDDUP THATS ENUFF INFO :x