Okay i seriously didn't know what to say about today, but i got a song explains everything.

Totally speechless. So many things i was hidden from me. I feel like i know nothing already. Everthing i know doesn't seem to be true anymore. So frustrating. Nothing seems real. Nothing seems cheerful, nice and warm. Just stinking wrong. Yeah EVERYTHING. Not my family lah....=.= That one. Is like soo typical. I'm so used to it. I almost like the pain. Nothing seems to cheer me up. Lol can cry now. Stupid zan playing tong hua T.T Lol.... AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH.
I dono what to do i don't know what to do..... So many things going through my head. I so wanna let it out but if i do... Just nothing can turn it back to normal. Nobody to turn too. Nobody to listen. Nobody understands -.- Tried telling people. Try so hard to make them understand in a way. But no one seems understand. Wait, they can't. Let alone care. Let alone try to listen.
Family. I can't be bothered. My GOD!! T.T Nothing is right. Nothing is right. Nothing is right.Nothing is ever right in my life. When is it going to ever change?
I shouldn't have lived somehow. I should have just gotten crashed by a car when i was crossing the road when i was 2 years old. I don't understand why the hell i still live. Everybody's bad luck. FAMILY. Don't they allll hate me except for my super cute cousin natelie ^^ Lol.
And friends, i always trust the wrong one. Put my trust in them and get backstabbed somehow. If i even survived that car when i was two, i should have a reason for living. Why make life so hard! I don't understand. I know lifes have ups and downs. But not everything at one go.. Nothing is what they seem. Nothing.