Checked out of the hotel. Yeah..

currently lifes kinda hetic, while yours majestic probably..

I don't know lah... crap.
Its not what it seems. You guys don't understand anything yet. And ya'll just accusing me like that. I'm not saying i'm in the right or that you're in the wrong. If you just let me explain maybe you guys would understand. But what do you do? You just keep scolding me! Whatever names you can come up with. I'M SICK OF IT OKAYY. This time i'm not even gonna TRY to explain. I'm not gonna prove myself. And obviously i wont fight it alone. Not anymore. I can't possibly TRY to be perfect around you people anymore. Its always ' cheyenneeee you like that lo!' Oh and HEYY. You NEVER fail to make me feel guilty. NEVER. I can stand it for awhile but not forever. There's a limit to everything. Have you ever thought maybe you crossed the line a little too far? I always redraw the line further and further. YOU don't see it, YOU don't feel it. I DO... I don't even get to explain myself........ & I'm not biased! I don't treat you people different, you guys are equally important whattt.. ="= WHATEVER lah..

Maybe switching off my phone for a whole 2 weeks is a good idea. Two weeks alone, to breathe, to prepare. TWO WEEKS just for Him and Him alone. I can't stand another week without church. I can't keep coming back when there's trouble, i don't want to. lI want something consistant.. Something i can hold on to, not something that i can experience for awhile and then i run away to get hurt again. Nooo.