Wednesday, July 16, 2008 @ 3:24 pm
Okay lah right now, i must say, life really sucks. But its how i look at it you know. Doesn't always... Yeah yeah i know my thinking is SUPER negative. Ahhhh sighs, but all i can do now is change bit by bit. Yeahh..
MONDAY 14 JULY,
The screw-est day of the week. The FIRST day of the week. Not that i didn't regconise it, Dad. I did, but i didn't know how to undo it or what can undo it. All i know is i can try it myself but it'll take awhile. & whatever the lecture was... i was, listening BUT I DIDN'T WANT TO LOOK LIKE I WAS. Cause whatever i say, whatever i do. YOU can never be happy what. What is the point if i had talked? Lol. It'll just make it worse what. Whatever it is, i don't know whats wrong with you nowadays.. always screaming. Arghhhh.
When i was listening i was playing with the rubiks cube. And i realise life is exactly how this thing works. The rubiks cube is the problem. Somestimes you can solve it fast, sometimes a little slower. & when you can't seem to solve it & you get sick of it you leave it alone & days later or maybe months, you come back to solve it. Sickening yeah?
Whatever after that i just headed to me room to ... Yeah i was pissed at my Dad cause He was right. He was always right. And if i didn't try to change.... i'd be in this sickened place for like what seems like eternity. I sick and tired of it i wanna get out of it. LIKE I SAID I CAN'T BOTHERED. But... honestly can i really keep that up?
I want to go back to You and never come back to this. Maybe its another test, but isn't test suppost top make us stronger not bring us down? Or bring us down so that when we go back we'd be much stronger? which?o.o
& yeah the Zan thing, Its going to happen again. I sooo know it. 'CHOOSE YOUR FRIENDS WISELY' Thats so what my mom said. Yeah then again, she was the one who made my first day of the week this bad.
TUESDAY, 15 JULY
Yeah okay, sarah i know.... i know i know... I KNOW FOR THE FACT THAT.. not only everybody is sickened by it but me too okay?:/
I'M SORRY. I'M SORRY. I'M SORRY. I'M SORRY.
I'm.... slowly.. trying to.. control? I guess. whalao, is like i've some kind of like xavier kind of illness =.=
Yeah then walked to tiong with Sarah, hmmm, she's really nice to talk to too. THANKS, really. Yeah. OH GOD,..
WEDNESDAY, 16 JULY
Yeah and soooo, life moves on. I'm learning to ignore. I'm trying to Thank God for everyday even though.... BUT BUT BUT. SAYING IS BELIEVEING. And soooon life won't be as bad.
& yeah after i've moved on from one, i've to move on from the second. I did it the first time i could always do it again. Test myself. Hmmm,.. ouhwell..
MONDAY 14 JULY,
The screw-est day of the week. The FIRST day of the week. Not that i didn't regconise it, Dad. I did, but i didn't know how to undo it or what can undo it. All i know is i can try it myself but it'll take awhile. & whatever the lecture was... i was, listening BUT I DIDN'T WANT TO LOOK LIKE I WAS. Cause whatever i say, whatever i do. YOU can never be happy what. What is the point if i had talked? Lol. It'll just make it worse what. Whatever it is, i don't know whats wrong with you nowadays.. always screaming. Arghhhh.
When i was listening i was playing with the rubiks cube. And i realise life is exactly how this thing works. The rubiks cube is the problem. Somestimes you can solve it fast, sometimes a little slower. & when you can't seem to solve it & you get sick of it you leave it alone & days later or maybe months, you come back to solve it. Sickening yeah?
Whatever after that i just headed to me room to ... Yeah i was pissed at my Dad cause He was right. He was always right. And if i didn't try to change.... i'd be in this sickened place for like what seems like eternity. I sick and tired of it i wanna get out of it. LIKE I SAID I CAN'T BOTHERED. But... honestly can i really keep that up?
I want to go back to You and never come back to this. Maybe its another test, but isn't test suppost top make us stronger not bring us down? Or bring us down so that when we go back we'd be much stronger? which?o.o
& yeah the Zan thing, Its going to happen again. I sooo know it. 'CHOOSE YOUR FRIENDS WISELY' Thats so what my mom said. Yeah then again, she was the one who made my first day of the week this bad.
TUESDAY, 15 JULY
Yeah okay, sarah i know.... i know i know... I KNOW FOR THE FACT THAT.. not only everybody is sickened by it but me too okay?:/
I'M SORRY. I'M SORRY. I'M SORRY. I'M SORRY.
I'm.... slowly.. trying to.. control? I guess. whalao, is like i've some kind of like xavier kind of illness =.=
Yeah then walked to tiong with Sarah, hmmm, she's really nice to talk to too. THANKS, really. Yeah. OH GOD,..
WEDNESDAY, 16 JULY
Yeah and soooo, life moves on. I'm learning to ignore. I'm trying to Thank God for everyday even though.... BUT BUT BUT. SAYING IS BELIEVEING. And soooon life won't be as bad.
& yeah after i've moved on from one, i've to move on from the second. I did it the first time i could always do it again. Test myself. Hmmm,.. ouhwell..
OUCH!
JESUS!~ I neeed Youu.
