My mom once send me a message to ask God for directions.
What's the point, when even if i do..
You wouldn't answer me.
No matter how loud i shout,
deep inside or out loud,
You don't answer...

I had this really weird nightmare with..
A. Joel
B. Jolyn
C. Liting & Dominic
D. Felicia.

First part was at some cafeteria, then i just got pissed. I don't know why.. and i kept saying the same line again... Either " i didn't say anything what?!" or " just saying what"

Then the second part, i went to find Jolyn, it was exam sitting arrangement format. Liting & dominic were beside Jolyn. Man.. I don't know why their in my dreams. Just because yesterday they were infront of me the whole time.. sheesh! I didn't know it could work like that.. Then .... whatever happened irrelevant.

But whatever it is.. Whatever happened in my dream came true.. Its not a good feeling. I never had such dejavu before..

Morning was black clouds how nice... Suits the mood. Cabbed down with sis & friends.

Had our tables changed during reading period. Then read in silence.. duh.. Sadded no Vinod. :/ Ahhh.

English, oh man would they ever leave..? Dominic and liting sat infront of me again.. How niceee (:

Then maths, combine classes (: Yayyyy! I've OMAR to talk too! Hands hung over our shoulder hopping to AVA. Whooo! Then did revision.. (: Then finally told someone my dream.. Sarah said instantly my dream cannot come true, if not.. it'll be bad. Well, thanks honey how nice to hear.. She even ask me to ran away from recess so that Jolyn do not need to tell me whatever she needs to. Haha. Cute.

Then recess was the bomb. A small part of me wanted to run but i stayed. Its either now, or never.. Better now.. So yeah after awhile we headed to 3/5 to talk. Mannn, why does always seem so scaryy :/ She's soo stern... I'm scared.

After that i just bounced of.. that's me. I do not like thinking immediately what i should do. I just wanna act normal first and the emo later. Which i can say.. i ran away outside to talk to omar again..

Next period literature.. Sigh. NO NADINE. COMMON MAN... 2 weeks in a row.. What hapened to her? :/ Had test spent one full page on question A and question B i didn't know how to answer. Then after writting i thought about it. What Jolyn said. BUTT.. NOTHING CAME OUT. NOTHINGGGGGG.. WHYYY. I DO NOT UNDERSTAND.. Sheesh i just like beginner for Pete's sake.

Went back to class. Andre smiled :D Great to seee a smile :D Then he said Vinod something really stupid again.
Vinod fact number 5 ( i think )
Andre: How to do this question ah?
Vinod: Just close your eyes. Picture a bright wall. Cross over it. Just cross over it.
Haha what the hell right.. I think He's damn funny..

Nevermind, Chemistry was hell boring. I couldn't think.. So.. the irons and whatever metals didn't sink through..

After that AVA for talk.. Damn cool i guess..

Then after school. I feeel so lost. Now where? Now what? Go where? I found Vinod first.. I'm sorry if you really hate me now cause i torture you in class most of the time but yeah (: Sorry lahhh haha..

Then he came soo yeah.. Then asked if i wanted to watch movie, with a bunch of people. The first thing that came to my mind was.. Yeah i know who. But i was sooo damn wrong lah. I didn't knoww. I didn't know what i was doing. Along the way to the canteen met Omar (: Yayyy. Finally one person to.. hold on to if i ever.. It was damn weird at the canteen. Cause that is when i realised I'm having a darn Dejavu. The canteen, the people, the sitting arrangement..... exactly the same. Yeah.. After that the bunch of people start to come closer. And he was still speaking i think i couldn't take it anymore.. Cause I heard they all know.. know what siaaa!!=.=

OMG The only freaking reason why i didn't want to.. is because of my sister. Yeah i bet she knows now my lifes a living hell. And.. stuff. urghhh.

I'm SORRY OMAR. I'M SORRY i had to hit you... That was probably the first time you didn't mind.. Ahhhhh. WHY DO I FEEL LIKE A FOOL...

Then yeah the greatest thing is thank God omar is walkin to the busstop if not.. It'll be so baddd.. But even if he did all the way. We didn't make it. Cause the next thing i see is Rose crying.. What the hell..
Me: is rose crying?
Omar: Ehhh, yeah..
WHY AM I HERE.. OMG.. Then started beating Omar again... AHHHH. Seriously.. If you have a knife now.. just kill me with it. Then Mrs Lee saw. Poor thing she has no voice :( Gave me that are you okay look? Lol, So i gave a stupid excuse like the wind very strong. Then she asked why were you beating omar. Then i said ohh, he very smelly so i beat him=.= Which is sooo crap.

Then i walked down the other wayy. Man.. Walking down the hill with clouded vision sucks. Probably drivers thinks i'm crazy but who cares. I don't care what you think. So i called Zan..

Then caught up.. and then stood at the road for like i have NO IDEA how long.. Then decided to got to Henderson wave better than nothing. Hopped on the taxi. The driver didn't know where it was.. =.= so started calling people. I called Zan&Reuben. I can't only talk to Zan know. Cause they come in a package. hhahaha!. Lol than Zan & reuben was sooo worried i was going to jump down=.= CRAZYYYY! Just because i called her just now nearly losing it but.. i'm not that retarded! but thanks for caring anyways.. (: soo sweet haha. They finally gave me the direction provided i'm home by 5 if not she concludes i'm dead. HAHAHA.

Sit there and think. Think thoughts.. =.= assholic. I was practically speechless either i didn't know what to say, do not now how to say, or nothing came out of my mouth..

Then after awhile cooled down then walked to Vivo... Then sat down and chill. Then the bookstore. Damn chaos word. Chickenn.

Then bus back home. Called Zan. Then after that called Andre. Then after that Omar smsed. So now i'm gonna call Nadine to ask hows she's doing... If it even works. :/