I had this feeling of regret. Like if i don't say it now.. I'd regret. BIG time. Plus.. Its so screwed anyway. I don't care.

Well.. My father allowed-.-

Went to city harvest today, again. I felt like crap after yesterday. But it was a whole to better with baby constantly trying to cheer me up. I guess..

Message was damn funny. Oh well.. And it didn't finish! Gee! Gahh! Ugh! Lol, oh well.. No more already eh.

Then went to BUGIS to eat duck rice. Then the shopping centre.
Then the bus back.

Then before i left, he gave me this cute little little sheep :D
SOO CUTE!! Hahaha. THANK YOU BABY.

Went out to meet him again though..
Had this really interesting conversation.
What if jolyn didn't join the musical?
(Then she wouldn't know joel.)
What if i hadn't invited jolyn to the bbq?
What if that day, the carnival didn't happen?
What if that day i hadn't waited with jolyn at the blue box and decided to go somewhere else instead?
What if jolyn hadn't asked joel to come for the bbq?
What if we didn't follow joel in the cab to see his uncle that day? (He probably wouldn't come.)
What if i didn't go for jamming? (Then he wouldn't have smsed me & that dramatic bye bye wouldn't happen)
What if i didn't have the mood to reply to his message?
Then it wouldn't have started.
Then i wouldn't know who he is.
We'll just walk pass without knowing each other.
We'd just hear bout each other stories from jolyn.
I'd never know that i could last this long with a guy ever.
I'd never be this happy.

So..I'm at home. Typing away.

Maybe just like if i'd not answer his sms.
If i had not agreed to accept.
If i had seen his motives sooner.
Maybe all these might not have happened.

When will they ever see.. Maybe this isn't the life for me?