Today's message was soo SOO for me. I instantly felt God speak through the pastor.. Every point. Every sentence. Every speech shot through me.

And then, it didn't feel so bad no more.. I feel like it really wasn't the problem now. So yeah, it really changed the way i think in a way.

But like the pastor said.. Its a constant battle. Cause the stupid devil would not give up putting those thoughts in my head. And later when we leave the church.. When we see the person.. The thought would come back.

Mothers day lunch. Dang, i didn't want to eat la.. But, my hands were tied back. Haha.

Then met baby for awhile. For a moment, I didn't really care what happened eh, or what you did or whatever..

But true enough those thoughts started banging on the four walls of my brain. Came back bit by bit. Disappeared. Then reappeared. And etc.

I missed ya'll bigbig time. BIG TIME. Omg, especially the red monkey! Omg! Then joel y came and sorta played pooled:p Hehe, i finally hit two consecutive balls at the near end.. I don't like being told what to do eh:\ Haha, sorry. Just me i guess.. :)

Had fun teasing Devy:p Haha.

Then had to go:( boooo. The thoughts came back like a bloody tsunami. There was not much time to react eh...

Stupid stupid devil.. :( I despise you:( alot.

Send Your peace again, Lord.
That's the only armour I have,
You.

Those days still a mystery.
Those thoughts still unsought.
These hearts, are they far?