Struggle to remember
Friday, October 02, 2009 @ 7:06 pm
You'll never know until you lose it. You'll never know until we're all not around. But I guess it doesn't matter to you now. I don't know when it started or how we all drifted one by one. By it doesn't matter now, all absorbed in our own worlds, only few get to stay in touch and together. Needless so say, some closer than before and vice versa.
With a heavy heart, I don't know what to think about you anymore. True it's not your fault. I'm not blamming you. But whenever I needed you there.. you just aren't anymore, it's like your name is no longer in my dictionary. Your figure I struggle so hard to remember. It is like meeting us now is a chore rather than a delight. Well then, who are you going to lean on when you've troubles? We seem to be the escape route for your troubles. No offence, but.. No matter how frustrated I am now at you. I do miss you, I guess we all do. We just can't see why you've turned out to be like that or have always been.
Ya, okay, you might say.. we do not know you well enough.. we don't know what you're going through. We DON'T KNOW how hard it is to go through your life. But the thing is.. You never tried telling us your problems, you were forever so secretive about your life. When asked about your week, without seeing for like what? freakin long, you just answer a simple fine.
You can't blame us for not moving away from you. As you yourself have moved from us when we tried to be there for you. We did, maybe you didn't see. Maybe it seemed as if we didn't try. But how can it be when everybody is saying the same thing? Then are we all wrong?
This is not to make you guilt ridden, more of think through it. I don't know.. now whenever people ask where you are, your name seem so foreign. I struggle hard to remember when was the time you were really really together with us actually happy..
