Sunday, February 17, 2008 @ 7:48 pm
The words whispered into the mirror were : I hate you.
Yes. DRATS. My life sooo farrrr... I'm totally speechless really speechless.
TOMORROW. The day i face the bloody krishnan. That dog. Yeah. DOG. That's one of the reasons why i cut my hair kay! So that krishnan won't recognise me. But... LOL. And NOW Vinod can't come to school tomorrow cause he twisted his leg. MY WORDD LAHH. :/ Am i suppose to stand alone and face his crap. Whaaaa. Ouhwell. :/
I went for duty instead. Then went to macs to use the com to view something. LOL. No i don't feel guilty. I'm sorry lah. It's my nature. I can either can be really friendly, very cold or super hyper(that's when everything comes out). After service, met with the rest of the youths. I was avoiding. YEAH. I'm AVOIDING. I can't help it. Trust me the friendship will take damn long to recover. Maybe it won't. I don't know.
Ahh. And my tu di didn't come T.T BOOOO!! :/ Have chicken pox. T.T. AHHHH get welll sooon! :/
Then followed Zan to eat with the CW teachers some gathering. WHALAO. Two crab and etc. TWO EHHH o.o HEH. Nevermind. The atmosphere was like changing again. Eeeeeeeeeek! Save me!
I've enough of it!
I'm SICK OF IT!
I wanna be out of it!
I wanna at least have a whole week of PEACE.
No emo atmosphere.
No MORE!
He's the peace to the restless, the hope to the hopless.
Yes. Stupid. I hate that group. YES. That group that always wants their own way. Whalao.
Immature. You're like how old lah! I know Shawn Ho is still young i dooon.... wait i DO blame him. I'm starting to hate church. Or rather hate my region. I'm starting to think i should change church again. Start a new life. Would it help? Would it be better? I don't even know why i'm still clinging on. Maybe the reason is like the reason i want to stay in my house i've stayed in for my whole life. Ouhwell. I maybe i would consier^^ but running away are for.... :/
Then headed to aunts house and yeah just had yuu sheng. Is that how you spell it? And now on the com. Well. Okay. ARGHHH vinod's not coming to school for 2months! :'(
And when she whispered those words
A tear dropped
And it sounded just like how a pin would sound like when it reaches the floor in an empty room
The only thing that pulls me back to where i am. Is this song..
SOMEBODY: Know what i don't give a shit anymore. To ANYONE. I don't need ANYBODY to understand me! They think what they wanna think. Like i give a shit what they think. The only think that makes me worry is because i actually BOTHER. I actually CARE. But why the fuck should i? When nobody does? Why? Why?! WHY!! Urghhh. I don't need YOU to care. I don't need anybody to care.. I'll let my sister or brother say what they wants to say. Whatever they says let the words sunk deep into your heads. Just HATE ME :D i don't mind. After all i don't care. I don't need to know what they constantly say about me. I just want things to be the way i SEE them the way they are. Leave me alone.
